MY FINAL SEMESTER WAS EASY, NOT SO MUCH WORK TO DO. THE ONLY ISSUE I HAD WAS THAT I WAS BATTLING WITH MY DEPRESSION. IT GOT WORSE WHEN MY FRIEND GAVE BIRTH AND TO A BABY BOY. ALL THE EMOTIONS IT STIRRED ON ME. TEE WOULDN'T HELP BECAUSE HE DIDN'T KNOW HOW TO. I MEAN I EVEN FAILED TO HELP MYSELF, WEED WAS MY ONLY FRIEND. IT UNDERSTOOD ME AND MADE ME SEE LIFE.
AS USUAL I DID NOT ATTEND ALL MY LECTURES BUT THAT DID NOT STOP ME FROM STUDYING, STUDYING WAS NOT AN ISSUE. AROUND NOVEMBER JUST BEFORE I SAT FOR MY FINAL EXAMS, I FOUND OUT THAT I WAS PREGNANT. I WAS VERY EXCITED. AND THEN I GOT MIXED EMOTIONS BECAUSE I KNEW THIS WOULD BE A NEW CHALLENGE. BUT I SWORE TO MYSELF THAT THIS TIME, I WILL HAVE THE BABY. MY OTHER DECISIONS WERE BASED ON THE FACT THAT I WAS STILL AT SCHOOL BUT THIS TIME I WASN'T, SO I I DID NOT HAVE AN EXCUSE AS TO NOT HAVE THE BABY.
I TOLD TEE AND I CANT REMEMBER HIS REACTION, IT IS ALWAYS HARD FOR ME TO TELL HIS EMOTIONS OR WHAT HE IS THINKING ABOUT, HE IS A HARD MAN TO READ. HE ASKED WHAT WAS MY DECISION AND I TOLD HIM THAT I WOULD HAVE THE BABY AND HE WAS LIKE "NOO, WE ARE NOT EVEN FINANCIALLY STABLE, WHAT IF WE FAIL TO TAKE CARE OF HIM, YES HE SAID A HIM" I TOLD HIM THAT THEN LET "HIM" BE OUR MOTIVATION TO WORK HARDER COZ EITHER WAY, THIS TIME I WILL HAVE THE BABY, SO HE TOOK ON THE CHALLENGE AND ACCEPTED. HIS BUSINESS WAS NOT DOING SO WELL LATELY AND MOST OF THE TIME WE WERE BROKE. BUT I WAS DETERMINED COME RAIN COME SUNSHINE, THEN WE WILL EXPERIENCE IT TOGETHER UNLESS LIFE HAS OTHER PLANS FOR ME.
