Back to basics
5 months into my pregnancy with G. Tee and i weren't doing well. I was hopeless. I felt like the universe was working against me. Here i am pregnant, no job, Tee has no job, we can't even pay rent. So Tee decided it was a great time for me to go home. Because at home, my parents i=would take care of me. As well as the pregnancy. The plan was for me to go home, and for him to go to another town where he had been promised a job. I couldn't understand why i couldn't just go with him. but he insisted. I was afraid of going home. what were my parents going to say about my pregnancy? Tee insisted that i should first inform them that i was pregnant before going home. So, that was what i did. I went up to the hill, to call my mum. I needed the serenity and quiet of nature. i told tee that i would go alone. i wanted to do this alone. so i called my mum.
"Hi mum, how are you"
"I'm fine"
"So mum, i need to tell you something, i'm 5 months pregnant," i thought i should just get it over with. that silence i felt it go on forever, i even thought she had hanged up on me.
"Okay!" she finally said and hang up. i knew that was the end. no way i was going home. so i laid down on the rock under the tree and watched the sky. i wondered what the universe had in store for me. after a while, i went back to the house.
"So, how did it go?" Tee asked me.
"Not so well, she didn't say anything, she even hang up on me" Tee hugged me. somehow he always knew the right thing to say.
"Well, at least now she knows, she won't be surprised when she sees you"
"no way am going home after all that"
"C'mon babe, we already talked about this, you have to. i can't take care of you. at least think of the baby. you will be safer at home"
i wasn't sure what to say, so i just stayed quiet. In my mind, i was sure that i would never see him again. so i packed my bags and belongings and decided upon the day that i would go home. the day was a Friday. that day i woke up early just to see the sun rise over those hills i loved so much, we smoked some weed and laid down on the rocks, embracing the warmth and sounds of nature. we took a video with each of us saying our goodbyes. i won't lie but that was the saddest day of my life. i cried like a baby. i was very sure that i was never going to see Tee again, ever. So he took me to the bus station and hugged him for like 10 minutes before finally getting on that bus. and that was it. that was the goodbye.
"C'mon babe, you see me in no time. okay! i just need to get a few things in order, so i can be able to take care of you guys! okay!" i nodded my head.
"Take care of the baby for me"
as the bus left the stage, i kept looking back until he was no longer visible, that was it. i closed my eyes and wished that the bus would move at the speed of a snail.
