WORK

I BEGAN WORKING AT THE COLLEGE BUT GOT BORED EVEN BEFORE THE FIRST DAY WAS OVER. I TRIED TELLING THE PRINCIPAL THAT HE SHOULD UPGRADE THE SCHOOLS RESOURCES BECAUSE THERE WAS NO WAY STUDENTS WERE GOING TO BE COMPETITIVE WITH THOSE KINDS OF RESOURCES. BUT HE JUST IGNORED ME. HE THOUGHT THAT JUST COZ I HAD NOT COMPLETED SCHOOL AND I WAS YOUNG I DIDNT KNOW WHAT I WAS TALKING ABOUT.
I  COULD RUN THE SCHOOL BETTER THAN HIM AND EVEN IMPROVE THE TURNOUT OF THE STUDENTS. BUT AFTER TRYING TO TALK TO HIM FOR TWO DAYS I GAVE UP. THE SCHOOL WAS OF NO USE TO ME, THERE IS NOTHING NEW I WAS LEARNING THERE. SO I DECIDED TO QUIT AND GO FOLLOW UP ON THE UNIVERSITY. SO THE NEXT DAY WHICH WAS FRIDAY I NEVER SHOWED UP TO WORK AND I DIDNT GIVE HIM A NOTICE.
THE LOCAL UNIVERSITY TURNED OUT THEY HAD AN OPEN SPOT BUT I WAS TO GO TO THE MAIN CAMPUS FOR A WEEK, SO THAT THEY CAN DETERMINE WHETHER I WAS QUALIFIED FOR THE POSITION. I WAS SO HAPPY. I KNEW I WOULD PASS. BECAUSE I'M GREAT WITH REAL LIFE SITUATIONS AND PRACTICAL STUFF I JUST HATE THEORETICAL STUFF ESPECIALLY IF I'M GOING TO BE TESTED. I LIKE THEORY IF I'M READING FOR MY OWN PERSONAL REASONS.
I WENT TO THE CAMPUS FOR A WEEK, I PASSED AND THEY SAID I COULD START MY ATTACHMENT. BEST DAY OF MY LIFE. I LEARNED A LOT FROM THEM. AND I ALSO GAVE THEM NEW IDEAS TO EMPLOY TO THEIR CAMPUS, WHICH TILL DATE THEY STILL USE AND EVERY TIME I SEE MY WORK I FEEL LIKE I'M NOT SUCH A LOSER.
THOSE THREE MONTHS WERE THE BEST TIME OF MY LIFE, I WENT TO WORK HIGH EVERYDAY AND THEY NEVER EVEN NOTICED. GETTING HIGH HAD SOMETHING TO DO WITH I MISSING TEE A LOT I MEAN IT HAD BEEN THREE MONTHS SINCE WE LAST SAW EACH OTHER AND HE WAS NOT COMING BACK ANYTIME SOON, I WAS KIND OF LONELY.
I HATE THE WORD LONELY, I REMEMBER THE FIRST TIME I FOUGHT WITH TEE. MIND YOU WE HAD KNOWN EACH OTHER FOR A WEEK, MEANING WE REALLY DID NOT KNOW EACH OTHER THAT WELL AND WE HAD NO LOVE INTEREST WHATSOEVER TOWARDS EACH OTHER, AND HE HAD THE GUTS TO TELL ME THAT I WAS LONELY. I GOT SO MAD THAT I DID NOT TALK TO HIM FOR TWO WEEKS. MOSTLY BECAUSE HE WAS RIGHT AND HE HAD THE COURAGE TO TELL ME THAT.
ANYWAY, MY COLLEAGUES AT WORK LOVED ME SO MUCH THAT EVEN AFTER THE ATTACHMENT THEY TOLD ME I SHOULD GO THERE ANYTIME I WANT TO, I WAS PRACTICALLY FAMILY. ANYWAY, THE END OF MY ATTACHMENT MARKED THE BEGINNING OF MY FOURTH AND FINAL YEAR IN CAMPUS. I MADE RESOLUTIONS THAT I WOULD STUDY SO HARD IN MY FINAL YEAR, I DID NOT LOOK FORWARD TO FAILING ANY UNITS.
LIFE JUST SAT UP THERE WITH A SMIRK ON ITS FACE, TELLING ME "MY DEAR CHERRY, YOU ARE IN FOR SOME BIG SURPRISES"

ATTACHMENT

AFTER I SETTLED DOWN, I CALLED TEE TO INFORM HIM THAT I GOT TO SCHOOL SAFE, WE TALKED A WHILE ABOUT MISSING EACH OTHER AND SOME LOVEY DOVEY BLAHBLAHBLAH. I WAS TOO TIRED TO COOK, I JUST BOUGHT FOOD, MILK, AND WEED. I KNEW THAT AFTER HAVING A SHOWER AND SETTLING DOWN ON THE BED TO WATCH A MOVIE WHILE GETTING HIGH AND EATING, I WILL JUST PASS OUT. AND THAT WAS EXACTLY WHAT HAPPENED.
THE FOLLOWING DAY, A FRIEND OF MINE HER NAME WAS WREN, WE WERE TO GO FOLLOW UP ON OUR ATTACHMENT APPLICATIONS SINCE WE HAD APPLIED AT THE SAME ORGANIZATIONS. TIME WAS RUNNING OUT AND I DINT LOOK FORWARD TO FAILING MY ATTACHMENT. AFTER A QUICK SHOWER AND SOME BREAKFAST. WE WENT TO THE RESPECTIVE ORGANIZATIONS.
THERE WAS ONE COLLEGE INSTITUTE THAT OFFERED AS A POSITION AND TOLD US TO REPORT ON WEDNESDAY, IT WAS AN OPPORTUNITY ALRIGHT BUT I DID NOT WANT TO CARRY OUT MY ATTACHMENT THERE. THE SCHOOL FACILITIES WERE OUT, OF DATE, I COULD HAVE BEEN THE PRINCIPAL AND TURN THAT PLACE AROUND. BUT AT LEAST I HAD SOMETHING BEFORE I SECURED A PLACE ON A LOCAL UNIVERSITY THAT I HAD MY EYES SET ON.
AFTER THE DAY I DECIDED IT WAS TIME TO GO VISIT MY GRANDFATHER BEFORE I BEGAN MY ATTACHMENT. THE FOLLOWING DAY I TOOK A BUS, AND WITHIN 2 HOURS I WAS ALREADY THERE. HE WAS SO HAPPY TO SEE ME. I WAS NAMED AFTER HIS WIFE, WHO DIED DURING CHILDBIRTH, I NEVER GOT TO MEET HER.
BUT FROM THE STORIES GRANDPA TOLD ME, SHE WAS AN AMAZING WOMAN. I SPENT THE DAY WITH HIM AND LEFT IN THE EVENING AT AROUND 5PM. NOW I WAS CONTENT AND READY TO FACE THE WORLD.

DEAD END

THE DAY WAS FINALLY HERE, I HAD GROWN SO ATTACHED TO TEE'S VILLAGE THAT I FELT SAD LEAVING. TEE USUALLY TELLS ME THAT I GET ATTACHED TOO MUCH AND I TELL HIM "HOW ABOUT I STOP LOVING YOU RIGHT NOW" AND HE WOULD SAY THAT "YOU KNOW THAT IS IMPOSSIBLE" AND WE WOULD ARGUE UNTIL NO ONE WINS.
IT WAS A SUNDAY AND I HAD TO LEAVE EARLY TO MAKE IT BACK TO SCHOOL EARLY. STAYING AT THE COUNTRY MADE ME MISS MY GRANDFATHER SO MUCH THAT I VOWED ONCE I LEFT, I WOULD GO AND SEE HIM. THAT SUNDAY MORNING I PACKED UP MY STUFF AND IT WAS TIME TO GO. TEE, HIS BROTHER AND HIS FRIEND WERE TO ACCOMPANY ME TO THE BUS STATION. HE SUGGESTED THAT WE SHOULD TAKE A MOTORCYCLE SINCE IT WAS QUITE THE DISTANCE BUT I REFUSED, I WANTED TO WALK AND TAKE IN THE SCENE FOR THE LAST TIME.
WE GOT TO THE BUS STATION, I PURCHASED MY TICKET AND AS WE WAITED, TEE SUGGESTED TO ME THAT THERE IS A PLACE HE KNEW IN TOWN WHERE WE COULD FIND AND SMOKE SOME WEED BEFORE I LEFT. WHO WAS I TO OBJECT? I TOLD HIM WE SHOULD GO. WE WENT, THE THREE OF US.
WE SMOKED AND TALKED AND LAUGHED. TEE'S BROTHER DID NOT SMOKE, BUT SINCE EVERYONE THERE WAS SMOKING HE GOT HIGH THROUGH ALL THAT SMOKE AND HE GOT REALLY TALKATIVE WHICH WAS GOOD COZ IT WAS AMAZING AND HE WAS FUNNY TOO. BY THE TIME WE WERE DONE, I FEARED THE BUS WOULD HAVE ALREADY LEFT. YOU DONT KNOW HOW TIME GOES BY WHEN HIGH. BUT HOW WAS I TO GO ON AN EMPTY STOMACH AFTER SMOKING WEED, SO WE WENT TO A HOTEL AND WE ATE. THEN THEY TOOK ME TO THE BUS STATION.
THE BUS HAD ALREADY LEFT BUT THEY TOLD ME TO GET IN THE NEXT ONE. WHICH HAD ONLY TWO REMAINING SEATS. I HUGGED THEM GOODBYE AND I DID NOT EVEN GIVE TEE A KISS. I FELT SO SAD. GOODBYES ARE SAD FOR ME, I DONT LIKE THEM. I FELT LIKE MY HEART WAS BEING RIPPED APART. I HAD GROWN SO ATTACHED THAT IT FELT SAD TO LEAVE.
THE BUS WAS FULL AND IT WAS TIME TO GO. WE LEFT, I WAVED GOODBYE AGAIN THROUGH THE WINDOW. AFTER SOME DISTANCE I CRIED, I REMEMBERED ALL THOSE MOMENTS AND I ACTUALLY CRIED. I DONT KNOW IF I WAS CRYING FOR TEE OR THE PLACE. I HAVE NEVER CRIED FOR LEAVING A PLACE BUT I DID AND THE PERSON NEXT TO ME ASKED WHAT WAS WRONG AND I SAID SOMETHING GOT IN MY EYE. WHICH WAS A WHITE LIE BECAUSE HOW COULD SO MANY TEARS BE FROM SOMETHING IN MY EYE. HE DID NOT INSIST.
ON THE WAY I SAW ONLY LOVE, ITS FUNNY HOW THE MIND REVEALS THE EXACT SAME THING YOU ARE FEELING AROUND YOU. I SAW TWO KIDS ABOUT 2 YEARS OLD A BOY AND A GIRL, THEY RAN TOWARDS EACH OTHER HUGGED AND KISSED AND THEN THEY SHIED AWAY AND STARTED RUNNING AGAIN. I HAVE NEVER FORGOTTEN THAT IMAGE.
I SAW A LOT OF LOVERS AND THEY MADE ME ALL THE MORE SAD BUT GLAD THAT I ALSO HAD LOVE. MY JOURNEY GOT TO AN END. I GOT TO SCHOOL JUST IN TIME, BOUGHT FOOD AND WEED AND WENT TO THE HOUSE. IT WAS GOING TO BE SO EMPTY WITHOUT TEE.

LAST NIGHT

I FINALLY FOUND OUT THAT THE REASON FOR MY MOODSWINGS WAS MY PERIODS. THE PAIN I USUALLY GOT FROM MY PERIODS I COULD HANDLE BECAUSE IT WAS ALWAYS BEARABLE, BUT AFTER THE ABORTION, THE PAIN WAS EXTREMELY INTENSE. ANYWAY, ON MY LAST DAY AT THE VILLAGE, TEE'S BROTHER AND I WENT TO THE RIVER WE HANG OUT AND TALKED A LOT, THEN HE SHOWED ME AROUND THE VILLAGE, THE PLACE WAS REALLY BEAUTIFUL, I MEAN I FELL IN LOVE WITH IT.
I CANNOT REMEMBER WHAT TEE WAS DOING THAT DAY BUT HE WAS NOT AROUND, SO IN THE EVENING I DECIDED TO BUY SOME ALCOHOL TO CELEBRATE MY STAY IN THE VILLAGE BEFORE THE FOLLOWING DAY CAME WHICH WAS A SUNDAY WHICH WAS WHEN I HAD TO LEAVE. I WOULD HAVE PREFERRED WEED BUT I DIDN'T KNOW WHERE TO GET WEED. SO I OPTED FOR ALCOHOL.
TEE'S BROTHER TOOK ME TO THE SHOPPING CENTER, I BOUGHT TWO BOTTLES, I KNEW I WOULD BARELY DRINK BUT TEE WOULD. THAT NIGHT AFTER WE ALL HAD SUPPER, TEE INVITED HIS FRIEND OVER, THE ONE WHO GAVE US WEED BUT UNFORTUNATELY THAT NIGHT HE DID NOT HAVE WEED. IT WAS A FULL MOON, THE SKYS LOOKED AMAZING, THE AIR WAS SO CALM. I FELT LIKE I COULD LIVE IN THAT MOMENT FOREVER.
WE PUT ON SOME MUSIC AND WE DRANK AND TALKED AND THE ALCOHOL DID NOT LAST THAT LONG AND NO ONE WAS DRUNK BY THE TIME THE TWO BOTTLES WERE OVER. BUT WE HAD A GREAT TIME. WE WATCHED THE STARS UNTIL AROUND 1AM, TEE'S FRIEND LEFT AND TEE WENT WITH HIM JUST TO MAKE SURE HE GOT HOME SAFELY, HIS HOUSE WAS NOT FAR AWAY FROM TEE'S.
WHEN HE CAME BACK I WAS ALREADY IN BED SO HE JOINED ME, I FOUND OUT THAT THE REASON HE HAD GONE AWAY THE WHOLE DAY WAS BECAUSE I WAS BEING ALL MOODY ON HIM AND HE DID NOT WANT TO ARGUE ON OUR LAST DAY. I SAID THAT THAT DIDN'T MAKE SENSE, I WAS NOTHING BUT SWEET TO HIM BUT OF COURSE WE BOTH KNEW I WAS LYING.
WE PUT ALL THAT BEHIND US AND DECIDED TO ENJOY THE NIGHT, WE TALKED INTO THE NIGHT ABOUT HOW MUCH WE WOULD MISS EACH OTHER AND WE HAD SEX. AND WE CALLED IT A NIGHT.

LOVE

THERE WAS SOME LOVE THAT NIGHT AND MY HOLIDAY WAS COMING TO AN END. MY PLAN WAS TO STAY THERE FOR A WEEK THEN GO BACK TO SCHOOL TO FOLLOW UP ON THE APPLICATIONS I HAD SENT FOR MY ATTACHMENT. I DID NOT WANT TO MISS AN ATTACHMENT. THE FOLLOWING DAY CAME, TEE, HIS BROTHER AND I EACH OF US HAD DUTIES TO DO. TEE WAS TAKING CARE OF THE COW, HIS BROTHER WAS FINISHING UP ON SOME FIELD WORK AND I WAS DOING THE UTENSILS AFTER HAVING CLEANED UP THE COMPOUND.
THE DAY WAS SUNNY, WE WERE CHATTING WITH TEE LISTENING TO THE RADIO WHEN GRANDPA SUDDENLY ENTERED THE COMPOUND. GRANDPA WAS KATES DAD, HE WAS CONSIDERABLY OLD THAT'S WHY I CALLED HIM GRANDPA, KATE WAS THE LASTBORN, HE HAD LIKE FIFTEEN CHILDREN I THINK.
SO WE GREETED HIM AND GAVE HIM A SEAT. HE CAME OVER TO TALK TO TEE, SO THEY TALKED ABOUT VARIOUS ISSUES WHILE TEES BROTHER AND I MADE THEM TEA. THE CALF WAS SICK AND GRANDPA HAD COME TO GIVE TEE ADVICE ON HOW TO TAKE CARE OF IT, BUT MONTHS LATER THE CALF PASSED AWAY.
GRANDPA WAS THERE FOR A WHILE AND WE DID NOT TALK APART FROM GREETINGS, I WAS STILL HAVING ONE OF MY MOOD SWINGS. THE DAY PASSED BY PRETTY FAST AND IN THE EVENING TEE AND I WENT TO GET SOME WEED TO SMOKE UNDER THE NIGHT SKYS. TEES BROTHER NEVER SMOKED, HE ACTUALLY DID NOT DO ANY DRUGS. I LIKED THAT ABOUT HIM, HE STOOD BY HIS PRINCIPLES.
THERE WERE ONLY TWO DAYS LEFT FOR MY DEPARTURE, I WAS TO LEAVE ON A SUNDAY.
BUT THAT NIGHT AFTER WE HAD SMOKED WEED, TEE HAD TAKEN MY LAPTOP TO KATES PLACE DURING THE DAY TO CHARGE AND I HAD NO IDEA. SO HE WENT FOR IT, AND LEFT ME WITH HIS BROTHER, WE WERE IN THE KITCHEN BY THE FIRE. HIS BROTHER AND I HAD A REALLY GOOD TIME THAT EVENING CONNECTING, I DID NOT EVEN NOTICE THAT TEE WAS NOT AROUND.
BUT WHEN HE CAME BACK, IT HIT ME THAT HE HAD BEEN GONE FOR A LONG TIME, SO I SUDDENLY GOT MAD AT HIM, I STARTED THINKING THAT HE WAS WITH KATE DOING WHATEVER IT IS THEY DO WHEN THEY ARE TOGETHER.
FROM MY OBSERVATIONS THE PREVIOUS DAY, KATE ACTUALLY LIKED TEE A LOT, I COULD TELL, SHE ALWAYS HANG AROUND HIM, ALWAYS TOUCHING HIM AND SHE WOULD SIT WHERE TEE SAT. IT BOTHERED ME OF COURSE BUT I TRIED TO MAINTAIN MY EMOTIONS.  TEE TRIED TALKING TO ME BUT I JUST IGNORED HIM, I DONT KNOW WHERE THE ANGER CAME FROM ALL OF A SUDDEN, SO HE GAVE ME THE LAPTOP AND HE WENT TO BED. HIS BROTHER AND I OPENED A MOVIE TO WATCH BUT AFTER FIVE MINUTES INTO IT, I MISSED TEE AND DECIDED TO GO JOIN HIM IN BED. SO I BID HIS BROTHER GOODNIGHT.
WHEN I GOT TO BED I HELD HIM AND HE MOVED CLOSER TO ME, PUT HIS ARMS AROUND ME AND WE SLEPT. JUST SLEPT, THERE WAS NO SEX THAT NIGHT.

SILENT NIGHT

ANOTHER DAY WAS OVER AND CAME A NEW DAY.  THE FOLLOWING DAY WE COMPLETED THE WORK IN THE FIELD AND CLEANED UP HOME. TEES BROTHER HAD SOME ERRANDS TO RAN, SO IT WAS JUST TEE AND I. NIGHT CAME PRETTY FAST. SINCE AT TEES HOME THERE WAS NO ELECTRICITY HE TOLD ME TO ACCOMPANY HIM TO KATES HOME SO THAT I WOULD CHARGE MY LAPTOP THERE. I REALLY DID NOT WANT TO MEET THIS KATE BUT I WAS ALSO CURIOUS SO WE WENT.
THEY HAD A PRETTY NICE HOME, WELL TAKEN CARE OF. WE MET KATE JUST OUTSIDE THE COMPOUND AND SHE WAS PREGNANT, TEE INTRODUCED ME AS HIS COUSIN AND I SAID HI TO HER SHE MADE A JOKE THAT TEE WAS THE FATHER OF HER CHILD AND HE RAN AWAY ONCE HE FOUND OUT THAT SHE WAS PREGNANT. EVERYONE LAUGHED APART FROM ME. I DIDNT FIND IT FUNNY AND I HATED HER AT FIRST SIGHT. SHE WAS SO JUMPY AND TALKATIVE, I FOUND HER UNBEARABLE. SO TEE WENT AHEAD TO CHARGE THE LAPTOP SINCE HE KNEW HIS WAY AROUND THE HOUSE AND HE WAS WELCOME ANYTIME.
HE HAD PROMISED ME THAT I WOULD HAVE A GOOD TIME, BECAUSE GRANDPA WAS AROUND AND HE GAVE THE BEST STORIES, ABOUT THE PAST. I LOVED OLD PEOPLES STORIES. I WAS NO LONGER IN THE MOOD ONCE WE GOT THERE. MY MOODS JUST SHIFTED AND I STAYED SILENT, THE WHOLE TIME WE SPENT THERE, LIKE I LITERALLY DID NOT UTTER A SINGLE WORD NOT EVEN A SMILE OR A LAUGH. AND WE WERE THERE FOR ONE AND A HALF HOURS. EVERYONE CHATTED AWAY AND THEY WERE ALL LAUGHING, FROM MY OBSERVATIONS THEY REALLY LIKED TEE, BUT I WAS NOT SURPRISED, EVERYONE LIKED HIM, HE WAS A FRIENDLY PERSON. TEE TRIED TO MAKE ME TALK BY SUBTLE CONVERSATION, I HAD TO ANSWER WHERE I AM FROM AND HOW TEE AND I WERE RELATED. BUT APART FROM THAT, I DID NOT TALK. GRANDPA TRIED MAKING A CONVERSATION WITH ME BUT I COULD NOT HAVE IT SO HE SOON  JUST GAVE UP.
IT WAS TIME FOR US TO GO, WE BID THEM GOODBYE AND LEFT, THE AIR HAD A CALMNESS TO IT, THE STARS WERE BRIGHT AND IT WAS A BEAUTIFULL SILENT NIGHT.
"BABE ARE YOU OKAY?" TEE ASKED ME
"YES AM OKAY" I KNEW HE WOULD ASK THAT BECAUSE OF HOW SILENT I WAS
"ARE YOU SURE BECAUSE YOU HAVE BEEN SO QUIET EVER SINCE WE GOT TO KATES PLACE"
"BABE I'M JUST QUIET THERE IS NOTHING WRONG REALLY" I KNEW HE WAS NOT GOING TO GIVE UP SOON
"I KNOW YOU DONT LIKE THEM BUT THAT IS JUST WHO THEY ARE, TRY AND BEAR WITH THEM."
"IT'S OKAY I UNDERSTAND AND I HATE THAT KATE" HE SMILED
"I KNEW IT"
"DID YOU WANT ME TO LOVE HER?"
"I WOULD HAVE BEEN HURT IF YOU LIKED HER"
SO WE LAUGHED
"BABE CAN WE NOW STOP TALKING ABOUT THIS, ITS A BEAUTIFUL NIGHT, THE STARS ARE SHINING, THE MOON IS OUT, WE ARE IN THE COUNTRY, DO YOU KNOW WHAT THAT MEANS," I TOLD HIM, HE PULLED ME CLOSER TO HIM AND TOLD ME
"NO, I DONT, WHY DONT YOU TELL ME"
SO I KISSED HIM AND WE KISSED FOR A WHILE
"NOW WE HAVE TO GET BACK HOME IT'S LATE," I TOLD HIM AFTER PULLING MYSELF AWAY
"SERIOUSLY, YOU JUST SAID ITS A BEAUTIFUL NIGHT, WHY CAN'T WE STAY HERE A LITTLE BIT LONGER?"
"WE WOULD IF THERE WAS A BED," I TOLD HIM
"WELL THERE IS A TREE THAT SHOULD COUNT FOR SOMETHING" HAHAHA VERY FUNNY, WE LAUGHED AND WALKED BACK HOME. IT WAS A SILENT NIGHT.