DEAD END

THE DAY WAS FINALLY HERE, I HAD GROWN SO ATTACHED TO TEE'S VILLAGE THAT I FELT SAD LEAVING. TEE USUALLY TELLS ME THAT I GET ATTACHED TOO MUCH AND I TELL HIM "HOW ABOUT I STOP LOVING YOU RIGHT NOW" AND HE WOULD SAY THAT "YOU KNOW THAT IS IMPOSSIBLE" AND WE WOULD ARGUE UNTIL NO ONE WINS.
IT WAS A SUNDAY AND I HAD TO LEAVE EARLY TO MAKE IT BACK TO SCHOOL EARLY. STAYING AT THE COUNTRY MADE ME MISS MY GRANDFATHER SO MUCH THAT I VOWED ONCE I LEFT, I WOULD GO AND SEE HIM. THAT SUNDAY MORNING I PACKED UP MY STUFF AND IT WAS TIME TO GO. TEE, HIS BROTHER AND HIS FRIEND WERE TO ACCOMPANY ME TO THE BUS STATION. HE SUGGESTED THAT WE SHOULD TAKE A MOTORCYCLE SINCE IT WAS QUITE THE DISTANCE BUT I REFUSED, I WANTED TO WALK AND TAKE IN THE SCENE FOR THE LAST TIME.
WE GOT TO THE BUS STATION, I PURCHASED MY TICKET AND AS WE WAITED, TEE SUGGESTED TO ME THAT THERE IS A PLACE HE KNEW IN TOWN WHERE WE COULD FIND AND SMOKE SOME WEED BEFORE I LEFT. WHO WAS I TO OBJECT? I TOLD HIM WE SHOULD GO. WE WENT, THE THREE OF US.
WE SMOKED AND TALKED AND LAUGHED. TEE'S BROTHER DID NOT SMOKE, BUT SINCE EVERYONE THERE WAS SMOKING HE GOT HIGH THROUGH ALL THAT SMOKE AND HE GOT REALLY TALKATIVE WHICH WAS GOOD COZ IT WAS AMAZING AND HE WAS FUNNY TOO. BY THE TIME WE WERE DONE, I FEARED THE BUS WOULD HAVE ALREADY LEFT. YOU DONT KNOW HOW TIME GOES BY WHEN HIGH. BUT HOW WAS I TO GO ON AN EMPTY STOMACH AFTER SMOKING WEED, SO WE WENT TO A HOTEL AND WE ATE. THEN THEY TOOK ME TO THE BUS STATION.
THE BUS HAD ALREADY LEFT BUT THEY TOLD ME TO GET IN THE NEXT ONE. WHICH HAD ONLY TWO REMAINING SEATS. I HUGGED THEM GOODBYE AND I DID NOT EVEN GIVE TEE A KISS. I FELT SO SAD. GOODBYES ARE SAD FOR ME, I DONT LIKE THEM. I FELT LIKE MY HEART WAS BEING RIPPED APART. I HAD GROWN SO ATTACHED THAT IT FELT SAD TO LEAVE.
THE BUS WAS FULL AND IT WAS TIME TO GO. WE LEFT, I WAVED GOODBYE AGAIN THROUGH THE WINDOW. AFTER SOME DISTANCE I CRIED, I REMEMBERED ALL THOSE MOMENTS AND I ACTUALLY CRIED. I DONT KNOW IF I WAS CRYING FOR TEE OR THE PLACE. I HAVE NEVER CRIED FOR LEAVING A PLACE BUT I DID AND THE PERSON NEXT TO ME ASKED WHAT WAS WRONG AND I SAID SOMETHING GOT IN MY EYE. WHICH WAS A WHITE LIE BECAUSE HOW COULD SO MANY TEARS BE FROM SOMETHING IN MY EYE. HE DID NOT INSIST.
ON THE WAY I SAW ONLY LOVE, ITS FUNNY HOW THE MIND REVEALS THE EXACT SAME THING YOU ARE FEELING AROUND YOU. I SAW TWO KIDS ABOUT 2 YEARS OLD A BOY AND A GIRL, THEY RAN TOWARDS EACH OTHER HUGGED AND KISSED AND THEN THEY SHIED AWAY AND STARTED RUNNING AGAIN. I HAVE NEVER FORGOTTEN THAT IMAGE.
I SAW A LOT OF LOVERS AND THEY MADE ME ALL THE MORE SAD BUT GLAD THAT I ALSO HAD LOVE. MY JOURNEY GOT TO AN END. I GOT TO SCHOOL JUST IN TIME, BOUGHT FOOD AND WEED AND WENT TO THE HOUSE. IT WAS GOING TO BE SO EMPTY WITHOUT TEE.