MARRIAGE

 

LOVE IS A BEAUTIFUL THING. THAT IS WHAT THEY SAY. 

And i dont disagree it is. I remember when i first fell in love with my husband Tee. The first thing i thought to myself was "Oh Boy! i'm in so much trouble" But what the hell! You cannot and i mean you can never reject love. It doesn't matter how Gangster or strong you are, but in the face of love, You are weak.
So tee and i have been together for 8 years now. I cannot imagine how fast time flies. The other day i was sitting around with Tee and one of his friends talking, and Tee said something that really Irritated me. I always find him annoying at times because of the way he talks. The same thing that actually made me fall in love with him, annoys me so much today.
Its funny because, it is one of those things i was willing to put up with in the name of love. back then i was in love (don't get me wrong, i still love him. Heaven knows how i miss him when he is far away) But, at the same time, i always wish that he would dissapear. Sometimes he annoys me so much that i just keep creating scenarios in my head, about how i would leave him and live happily. Of course i would never do that.
What i find so interesting is that, the same things that you love about your partner when you first meet, do not forget them, they will come in handy when you are bored and have gotten so much used to them years later on. Some of the things that you used  to ignore because you were in love, will come back to you.
As they say 
FOREVER IS A LONG LONG LONG TIME. 

SEPARATION

 

Back to basics

5 months into my pregnancy with G. Tee and i weren't doing well. I was hopeless. I felt like the universe was working against me. Here i am pregnant, no job, Tee has no job, we can't even pay rent. So Tee decided it was a great time for me to go home. Because at home, my parents i=would take care of me. As well as the pregnancy. The plan was for me to go home, and for him to go to another town where he had been promised a job. I couldn't understand why i couldn't just go with him. but he insisted. I was afraid of going home. what were my parents going to say about my pregnancy? Tee insisted that i should first inform them that i was pregnant before going home. So, that was what i did. I went up to the hill, to call my mum. I needed the serenity and quiet of nature. i told tee that i would go alone. i wanted to do this alone. so i called my mum. 

"Hi mum, how are you"

"I'm fine"

"So mum, i need to tell you something, i'm 5 months pregnant," i thought i should just get it over with. that silence i felt it go on forever, i even thought she had hanged up on me. 

"Okay!" she finally said and hang up. i knew that was the end. no way i was going home. so i laid down on the rock under the tree and watched the sky. i wondered what the universe had in store for me. after a while, i went back to the house.

"So, how did it go?" Tee asked me. 

"Not so well, she didn't say anything, she even hang up on me" Tee hugged me. somehow he always knew the right thing to say.

"Well, at least now she knows, she won't be surprised when she sees you"

"no way am going home after all that"

"C'mon babe, we already talked about this, you have to. i can't take care of you. at least think of the baby. you will be safer at home"

i wasn't sure what to say, so i just stayed quiet. In my mind, i was sure that i would never see him again. so i packed my bags and belongings and decided upon the day that i would go home. the day was a Friday. that day i woke up early just to see the sun rise over those hills i loved so much, we smoked some weed and laid down on the rocks, embracing the warmth and sounds of nature. we took a video with each of us saying our goodbyes. i won't lie but that was the saddest day of my life. i cried like a baby. i was very sure that i was never going to see Tee again, ever. So he took me to the bus station and hugged him for like 10 minutes before finally getting on that bus. and that was it. that was the goodbye.

"C'mon babe, you see me in no time. okay! i just need to get a few things in order, so i can be able to take care of you guys! okay!" i nodded my head.

"Take care of the baby for me"

as the bus left the stage, i kept looking back until he was no longer visible, that was it. i closed my eyes and wished that the bus would move at the speed of a snail. 

BABIE'S

 

Hello guys, it has been a ride. A ride and a journey that has shown me a world, that I could never imagine. Tee and I have been through hell and back. There are so many times I contemplated leaving him. But leaving someone when there are children involved, is hard, how do you even start explaining to your children why their father is suddenly not around? In addition, being a single parent is something that I would not like to engage in. I would rather fight with Tee every day but have him raise his kids as well. Not like I would do any better than him. There are so many times we have fought. So many times we have argued, with each one of us feeling exhausted with the other and with the life we chose. But at the end of the day, we have each other. It is safe to say that love prevails. As you recall from my very earlier post, Tee was not comfortable with being a father the first time I got pregnant. "He was not ready" as if ever anyone is ever ready to have a child. The second time I got pregnant Tee was working, and believe me, I was afraid to tell him that I was pregnant because I knew how he would react. I stayed for a month, without mentioning the pregnancy, then I decided it was time. So I went to visit him at his workplace and told him the news. you could see the blood drain from his face. I was right about how he would react. The first thing he told me was " Can't you..." what? I asked him "you know.." he replied. Tee I'm not getting an abortion. that is out of the question. We are already parents to one baby, So let the worst happen, but I will be giving birth to this baby. To be honest I was also afraid, not of raising the baby, but about my parents. They would just start criticizing me and how fast I'm rushing to have babies. So as it turned out, I was right about the criticism because it did happen, but I still gave birth to a beautiful baby. 

Now, the problem lies in that we have another challenge in our hands. I am pregnant again. and for the third time. As usual, Tee is not yet ready to be a father to three kids. the first two kids are already driving him crazy. as usual, when I told him, the first thing was, "Can't you just have an abortion, and then when we are well off (of course that means enough money as if money is ever enough) we can arrange to have a baby" as usual I refused. so here I am now. pregnant again. am not even ready to hear what my parents have to say. 

does this happen in every marriage, fear of having babies? i don't know. but parenting, adulting, motherhood, is taking a whole lot of my energy.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Motherhood

 

I have to be honest, motherhood has taken a toll on me. I even forgot how to write! Long story short, I got pregnant and gave birth to a beautiful child named G. As if that is not enough, I also got a sibling for him. Tee and I have been working tirelessly to provide for our children. Needles to say, I have discovered a few things in my parenting journey that I look forward to sharing with you. The other day I found Tee and me arguing over giving our child a punishment. I did not approve of his methods and he did not like me telling him how to parent his own child. But, mothers are always right. So I won that argument. Over the years we have found ourselves arguing over raising our children. This brings me to the next topic of my blog post... Do children break up relationships? 

Another Year

 

WOW!! I cannot believe another year is here. 2020 just went buy as if it was being blown by the wind. A lot has happened this year with Corona and so much more. On that note, I hope you are keeping safe. 

Mama G's journey continues early next year. I remember the last post like my life depended on it. Actually, I don't have a very good reason as to why I stopped writing, but deep down in my heart I actually know the reason why I stopped writing. And if you guessed it, Love was the reason.

You know, when I was a young girl, I never thought much about life and the future. I grew up in an upcountry. Growing up in the upcountry, Life was really sweet, every day was an adventure, going to the river to fetch water and to fish, going to the forest to gather some firewood, exploring the vast wildness and the forest. every day was simply an adventure. At night we would sit and gather by the fireplace and either my grandfather or my grandmother would tell us stories. we always looked forward to the stories. they were really captivating. I have to say that they were gifted in storytelling. Furthermore, in my tribe, the grandparents and the children, belong to the same age group. I think that is the reason why they understand children so well. quite a contradictory if you ask me.

Living upcountry, there was no electricity. believe me, we just heard stories about electricity. However, a shopping center was soon established nearby in the village and it had electricity. We would go there at night just to see the wonder that is electricity. However, I loved my life. Playing in the fields and stealing fruits from other people's lands, climbing trees, and many more. Moving to the city filled me with a lot of sadness. I was no longer able to watch the sky at night because of all the lights, there were no chilling forests to go for an adventure, no natural rivers to fish and swim, nothing. however, there was electricity. which made me fall in love with watching television. And since then, movies became my new passion. They still are, the only way I would cope with life was either watching a movie or writing. that was my medicine.

However, I met Tee and he showed me how to think about the future, how to think about tomorrow. He was so different from me, that I was amazed at how he viewed the world. however, our differences were the main reasons for our arguments. Personally, I don't know why people look for love and dream of being in love. Don't get me wrong, I'm not saying you shouldn't fall in love, but don't look for it, it will find you when you least expect it, and be ready for your world to change. A complete change. Because from my experience, love rocked my world, it changed everything I knew and opened me up to this new world. A world that I had no idea existed. I think one of the main things that falling in love took away from me was writing. Writing has and will always be my passion. but having fallen in love, it became quite challenging to write anything. This is ironic if you ask me because I thought love is supposed to inspire. 

Tune in next year as my journey to motherhood continues.

Happy holidays and may you have a happy new year. 

New Year, New Beginnings... So they say

HAPPY NEW YEAR.

As i have said before, i don't believe in new year. To me it's an illusion. It's a timeline that people give themselves to feel connected, to celebrate life. However, i have nothing against it. I love it when people come together. Because, that is when you feel most alive. I was supposed to spend my first new year ever with Tee, because we now live together officially and my parents know about that. But he chose to do that with his friends. I was so infuriated, but he came home early on the 1st and said that instead of me being mad at him, i should be happy that he is spending the first day of the year with me. That did not make any sense to me, but i was done wasting my energy being mad, so i just let it go.
Mama G chronicles will continue this year, i will share all about my pregnancy journey. Finding out i was pregnant for the third time was a joy. But, i was scared to death. I had no idea if the pregnancy would be smooth, considering my past abortions. I also had the fear of what my parents would think if they found out and not forgetting there is the community, who always shames an unmarried girl who gets pregnant. I was scared to death but determined to carry the pregnancy to term and have the baby. There was also Tee who suggested that i abort the pregnancy after telling him that i was determined to keep it. He soon changed his mind, But, broke my heart along the way. Being a single mum has never been a thought in my mind, But, i hate having to beg for love. My pregnancy was filled with heartache and a lot of heartache. But, as life has it, everything always works out in the end.

I WISH YOU ALL A YEAR FILLED WITH LOVE.

NEW LIFE

MY FINAL SEMESTER WAS EASY, NOT SO MUCH WORK TO DO. THE ONLY ISSUE I HAD WAS THAT I WAS BATTLING WITH MY DEPRESSION. IT GOT WORSE WHEN MY FRIEND GAVE BIRTH AND TO A BABY BOY. ALL THE EMOTIONS IT STIRRED ON ME. TEE WOULDN'T HELP BECAUSE HE DIDN'T KNOW HOW TO. I MEAN I EVEN FAILED TO HELP MYSELF, WEED WAS MY ONLY FRIEND. IT UNDERSTOOD ME AND MADE ME SEE LIFE.
AS USUAL I DID NOT ATTEND ALL MY LECTURES BUT THAT DID NOT STOP ME FROM STUDYING, STUDYING WAS NOT AN ISSUE. AROUND NOVEMBER JUST BEFORE I SAT FOR MY FINAL EXAMS, I FOUND OUT THAT I WAS PREGNANT. I WAS VERY EXCITED. AND THEN I GOT MIXED EMOTIONS BECAUSE I KNEW THIS WOULD BE A NEW CHALLENGE. BUT I SWORE TO MYSELF THAT THIS TIME, I WILL HAVE THE BABY. MY OTHER DECISIONS WERE BASED ON THE FACT THAT I WAS STILL AT SCHOOL BUT THIS TIME I WASN'T, SO I I DID NOT HAVE AN EXCUSE AS TO NOT HAVE THE BABY.
I TOLD TEE AND I CANT REMEMBER HIS REACTION, IT IS ALWAYS HARD FOR ME TO TELL HIS EMOTIONS OR WHAT HE IS THINKING ABOUT, HE IS A HARD MAN TO READ. HE ASKED WHAT WAS MY DECISION AND I TOLD HIM THAT I WOULD HAVE THE BABY AND HE WAS LIKE "NOO, WE ARE NOT EVEN FINANCIALLY STABLE, WHAT IF WE FAIL TO TAKE CARE OF HIM, YES HE SAID A HIM" I TOLD HIM THAT THEN LET "HIM" BE OUR MOTIVATION TO WORK HARDER COZ EITHER WAY, THIS TIME I WILL HAVE THE BABY, SO HE TOOK ON THE CHALLENGE AND ACCEPTED. HIS BUSINESS WAS NOT DOING SO WELL LATELY AND MOST OF THE TIME WE WERE BROKE. BUT I WAS DETERMINED COME RAIN COME SUNSHINE, THEN WE WILL EXPERIENCE IT TOGETHER UNLESS LIFE HAS OTHER PLANS FOR ME.

CHANGE

MY FINAL YEAR WAS ALSO OUR THREE YEAR RELATIONSHIP WITH TEE. PEOPLE OFTEN ASKED US WHEN IS YOUR ANNIVERSARY?" AND WE WOULD LOOK AT EACH OTHER AND BE LIKE WE DONT REALLY HAVE AN ANNIVERSARY. THE FIRST TIME I SAW TEE IS NOT THE FIRST TIME HE SAW ME, AND WE NEVER REALLY GOT FORMAL ABOUT OUR RELATIONSHIP, HE NEVER ASKED ME TO BE HIS GIRLFRIEND AND I NEVER ASKED HIM TO BE MY BOYFRIEND, I DONT THINK WE EVEN EVER DATED. WE JUST LET LIFE CARRY AS ALONG, WE WERE BASICALLY GOOD FRIENDS WHO ENJOYED EACH OTHERS COMPANY AND PEOPLE JUST ASSUMED WE WERE A COUPLE, AND I GUESS WE WERE SINCE WE WERE ALWAYS TOGETHER AND LIVED TOGETHER. SO TO GIVE PEOPLE THE ANSWER THEY NEEDED ABOUT WHEN WAS OUR ANNIVERSARY, WE DECIDED TO COME UP WITH A DATE, MOSTLY WE WOULD USE THE FIRST TIME WE HAD SEX BUT IT SEEMED SO ODD, SO WE JUST GAVE IT JANUARY 1ST.
MY FOURTH YEAR UNITS SEEMED PRETTY SIMPLE AND I WAS SO EXCITED, BUT THERE WAS THIS LECTURER I REALLY DID HATE AND IT TURNED OUT HE WAS GOING TO TEACH US ONE OF THE UNITS. I WAS SO FURIOUS I NEVER ATTENDED HIS UNIT THE WHOLE SEMESTER. I DID QUITE WELL ON MY FOURTH YEAR FIRST SEM BUT I DID FAIL ONE UNIT, THAT LECTURERS UNIT. LATER I CAME TO FIND OUT THAT IT WAS REALLY SIMPLE AND IF I HAD PUT MY HATRED ASIDE I WOULD HAVE PASSED THE UNIT. SCHOOL WAS EASY FOR ME BUT EMOTIONALLY AND PSYCHOLOGICAL, MY DEMONS CAUGHT UP WITH ME THAT SEMESTER.
I WAS ALWAYS DEPRESSED I GAVE TEE A HARD TIME, I COULDNT EVEN UNDERSTAND MYSELF. I KEPT ASKING GOD WHAT IS LIFE? WHY I'M I EVEN LIVING? AM A TERRIBLE HUMAN BEING. WEED PLAYED A BIG PART IN KEEPING ME SANE THAT SEMESTER WHICH MEANS I SMOKED A LOT OF IT, I DEPENDED ON IT. I SPENT MORE TIME WITH NATURE TO TRY AND SEE IF MY MIND WOULD BE AT PEACE, BUT I FELT PEACEFULL ONLY WHEN I WAS HIGH WHEN I WAS NOT I COULD FEEL MYSELF GOING CRAZY.
THE DEPRESSION HAD EVERYTHING TO DO WITH MY CHILD. A FRIEND OF MINE GOT PREGNANT AND SHE WAS SO EXCITED, WE SPENT MOST OF THE TIME TOGETHER AND SHE WOULD SHARE ALL HER HOPES AND DREAMS WITH ME ABOUT HER CHILD. WE WENT BABY SHOPPING AND EVERY MOMENT GOT ME MORE AND MORE DEPRESSED. NORMALLY AM NOT ONE TO REGRET BUT THIS TIME I DID. I KEPT THINKING WHAT IF? WHAT IF? MY BABY WOULD BE HERE WITH ME RIGHT NOW, I WOULD BE HOLDING HIM IN MY ARMS. BUT THE DEED WAS DONE AND I HAD TO DEAL WITH MY DEMONS.
I DECIDED TO GO HOME AND SEE IF A CHANGE IN ENVIRONMENT WOULD HELP GET RID OF MY DEMONS BUT IT DID NOT, I EVEN FELT MORE DEPRESSED. MY DAD KEPT ASKING ME WHAT WAS WRONG AND I HAD TO COME UP WITH AN EXCUSE EVERY TIME. MY MUM TOLD ME "CHERRY YOU LOOK SO UNHAPPY, WHAT IS WRONG?" AND I WOULD BE LIKE NOTHING MUM I'M FINE. THE QUESTIONS GOT MORE INTENSE AND I DECIDED TO GO BACK TO SCHOOL, TO AVOID THE QUERIES.
I DID NOT WIN THE BATTLE BUT I DID A GOOD JOB IN PRETENDING TO BE SANE UNTIL THE SEMESTER WAS OVER. WHAT I DID NOT KNOW WAS THAT, THAT WAS ONLY THE BEGINNING. LIFE HAD MORE PLANS FOR ME COME THE FOLLOWING SEMESTER.

FINAL YEAR

AFTER MY INTERNSHIP, WHICH I DID EXTREMELY WELL AND LEARNT A LOT, I WENT HOME FOR LIKE TWO WEEKS. THE HOLIDAY WAS FOR FOUR WEEKS BUT I NEEDED TWO WEEKS TO MYSELF. SO AFTER THE TWO WEEKS HOLIDAY AT HOME, I WENT BACK TO SCHOOL. MY MAIN THEME FOR THOSE TWO WEEKS BEFORE SCHOOL STARTED WAS; SMOKING A LOT OF WEED, EATING WHATEVER I WANT, SLEEPING AND WATCHING MOVIES. THAT WAS MY PLAN.
I HAD ALREADY GIVEN UP ON TEE, IT HAD BEEN THREE MONTHS AND HE STILL HAD NOT COME BACK. EVERY TIME WE TALKED HE WOULD BE LIKE, I PROMISE NEXT WEEK I WILL COME, SAME STORY OVER AND OVER AGAIN. FINALLY, I LEARNT THAT NEXT WEEK WAS NEXT MONTH AND NEXT MONTH PROBABLY NEXT YEAR.
ONE TIME WE WERE TALKING AND HE TOLD ME, I SWEAR BABE, I WILL COME TOMORROW AND I TOLD HIM, YOU KEEP SAYING THAT BUT YOUR TOMORROW NEVER COMES.
SO WE ENDED THE CONVERSATION RIGHT THERE. IT WAS AROUND 5PM, LIKE MY NORM, I WENT TO MY DEALER GOT MYSELF SOME WEED, BOUGHT SUPPER AND WENT BACK TO THE HOUSE, TO SMOKE AND COOK. THERE WAS A KNOCK AND I FROWNED BECAUSE HERE I WAS ENJOYING MY HIGH MOMENTS AND SOMEONE WANTS TO CUT THAT SHORT. SO I OPENED THE DOOR AND YES, TEE STOOD THERE JUST STARING AT ME WITH A MISCHEVIOUS SMILE.
 I MEAN IT HAD BEEN THREE MONTHS, HE EXPECTED ME TO HUG HIM AND KISS HIM AND BE OVER MYSELF WITH JOY BUT I WASNT DOING ANY OF THAT. SO WE STARED AT EACH OTHER FOR A GOOD 5MINUTES, THEN WE HUGGED. HE WAS LIKE
"BABE YOU DONT LOOK SO HAPPY TO SEE ME"
"OF COURSE AM NOT"
"BUT I THOUGHT YOU MISSED ME"
"WELL, YOU THOUGHT WRONG" WE STARED AT EACH OTHER. EVERY TIME I SAW HIM AFTER A LONG TIME IT WAS ALWAYS WEIRD, LIKE "WHAT DO WE DO NOW?"
SO I GAVE HIM SOME WEED, HE SMOKED AND WE STARTED TALKING, HE TOLD ME ALL ABOUT HIS TIME IN THE COUNTRY AND WE LAUGHED, WE LISTENED TO MUSIC AND WE ATE.
I DIDNT REALIZE HOW MUCH EMPTY THE HOUSE WAS UNTIL WE STARTED TALKING, I MEAN I HAD MISSED HIM MORE THAN I THOUGHT. I THINK WEED SHOULD BE GIVEN ALL THE CREDIT BUT LOVE WAS ALSO IN THE AIR SO WHEN YOU COMBINE BOTH IT WAS A LOVELY EXPERIENCE.
I WAS NOW IN MY FOURTH AND FINAL YEAR IN CAMPUS, AND ONLY 1WEEK WAS REMAINING TO THE BEGINNING OF THE SEMESTER. I STILL HAD MY RESOLUTIONS TO WORK HARD. BUT LIFE HAD OTHER PLANS FOR ME.

WORK

I BEGAN WORKING AT THE COLLEGE BUT GOT BORED EVEN BEFORE THE FIRST DAY WAS OVER. I TRIED TELLING THE PRINCIPAL THAT HE SHOULD UPGRADE THE SCHOOLS RESOURCES BECAUSE THERE WAS NO WAY STUDENTS WERE GOING TO BE COMPETITIVE WITH THOSE KINDS OF RESOURCES. BUT HE JUST IGNORED ME. HE THOUGHT THAT JUST COZ I HAD NOT COMPLETED SCHOOL AND I WAS YOUNG I DIDNT KNOW WHAT I WAS TALKING ABOUT.
I  COULD RUN THE SCHOOL BETTER THAN HIM AND EVEN IMPROVE THE TURNOUT OF THE STUDENTS. BUT AFTER TRYING TO TALK TO HIM FOR TWO DAYS I GAVE UP. THE SCHOOL WAS OF NO USE TO ME, THERE IS NOTHING NEW I WAS LEARNING THERE. SO I DECIDED TO QUIT AND GO FOLLOW UP ON THE UNIVERSITY. SO THE NEXT DAY WHICH WAS FRIDAY I NEVER SHOWED UP TO WORK AND I DIDNT GIVE HIM A NOTICE.
THE LOCAL UNIVERSITY TURNED OUT THEY HAD AN OPEN SPOT BUT I WAS TO GO TO THE MAIN CAMPUS FOR A WEEK, SO THAT THEY CAN DETERMINE WHETHER I WAS QUALIFIED FOR THE POSITION. I WAS SO HAPPY. I KNEW I WOULD PASS. BECAUSE I'M GREAT WITH REAL LIFE SITUATIONS AND PRACTICAL STUFF I JUST HATE THEORETICAL STUFF ESPECIALLY IF I'M GOING TO BE TESTED. I LIKE THEORY IF I'M READING FOR MY OWN PERSONAL REASONS.
I WENT TO THE CAMPUS FOR A WEEK, I PASSED AND THEY SAID I COULD START MY ATTACHMENT. BEST DAY OF MY LIFE. I LEARNED A LOT FROM THEM. AND I ALSO GAVE THEM NEW IDEAS TO EMPLOY TO THEIR CAMPUS, WHICH TILL DATE THEY STILL USE AND EVERY TIME I SEE MY WORK I FEEL LIKE I'M NOT SUCH A LOSER.
THOSE THREE MONTHS WERE THE BEST TIME OF MY LIFE, I WENT TO WORK HIGH EVERYDAY AND THEY NEVER EVEN NOTICED. GETTING HIGH HAD SOMETHING TO DO WITH I MISSING TEE A LOT I MEAN IT HAD BEEN THREE MONTHS SINCE WE LAST SAW EACH OTHER AND HE WAS NOT COMING BACK ANYTIME SOON, I WAS KIND OF LONELY.
I HATE THE WORD LONELY, I REMEMBER THE FIRST TIME I FOUGHT WITH TEE. MIND YOU WE HAD KNOWN EACH OTHER FOR A WEEK, MEANING WE REALLY DID NOT KNOW EACH OTHER THAT WELL AND WE HAD NO LOVE INTEREST WHATSOEVER TOWARDS EACH OTHER, AND HE HAD THE GUTS TO TELL ME THAT I WAS LONELY. I GOT SO MAD THAT I DID NOT TALK TO HIM FOR TWO WEEKS. MOSTLY BECAUSE HE WAS RIGHT AND HE HAD THE COURAGE TO TELL ME THAT.
ANYWAY, MY COLLEAGUES AT WORK LOVED ME SO MUCH THAT EVEN AFTER THE ATTACHMENT THEY TOLD ME I SHOULD GO THERE ANYTIME I WANT TO, I WAS PRACTICALLY FAMILY. ANYWAY, THE END OF MY ATTACHMENT MARKED THE BEGINNING OF MY FOURTH AND FINAL YEAR IN CAMPUS. I MADE RESOLUTIONS THAT I WOULD STUDY SO HARD IN MY FINAL YEAR, I DID NOT LOOK FORWARD TO FAILING ANY UNITS.
LIFE JUST SAT UP THERE WITH A SMIRK ON ITS FACE, TELLING ME "MY DEAR CHERRY, YOU ARE IN FOR SOME BIG SURPRISES"

ATTACHMENT

AFTER I SETTLED DOWN, I CALLED TEE TO INFORM HIM THAT I GOT TO SCHOOL SAFE, WE TALKED A WHILE ABOUT MISSING EACH OTHER AND SOME LOVEY DOVEY BLAHBLAHBLAH. I WAS TOO TIRED TO COOK, I JUST BOUGHT FOOD, MILK, AND WEED. I KNEW THAT AFTER HAVING A SHOWER AND SETTLING DOWN ON THE BED TO WATCH A MOVIE WHILE GETTING HIGH AND EATING, I WILL JUST PASS OUT. AND THAT WAS EXACTLY WHAT HAPPENED.
THE FOLLOWING DAY, A FRIEND OF MINE HER NAME WAS WREN, WE WERE TO GO FOLLOW UP ON OUR ATTACHMENT APPLICATIONS SINCE WE HAD APPLIED AT THE SAME ORGANIZATIONS. TIME WAS RUNNING OUT AND I DINT LOOK FORWARD TO FAILING MY ATTACHMENT. AFTER A QUICK SHOWER AND SOME BREAKFAST. WE WENT TO THE RESPECTIVE ORGANIZATIONS.
THERE WAS ONE COLLEGE INSTITUTE THAT OFFERED AS A POSITION AND TOLD US TO REPORT ON WEDNESDAY, IT WAS AN OPPORTUNITY ALRIGHT BUT I DID NOT WANT TO CARRY OUT MY ATTACHMENT THERE. THE SCHOOL FACILITIES WERE OUT, OF DATE, I COULD HAVE BEEN THE PRINCIPAL AND TURN THAT PLACE AROUND. BUT AT LEAST I HAD SOMETHING BEFORE I SECURED A PLACE ON A LOCAL UNIVERSITY THAT I HAD MY EYES SET ON.
AFTER THE DAY I DECIDED IT WAS TIME TO GO VISIT MY GRANDFATHER BEFORE I BEGAN MY ATTACHMENT. THE FOLLOWING DAY I TOOK A BUS, AND WITHIN 2 HOURS I WAS ALREADY THERE. HE WAS SO HAPPY TO SEE ME. I WAS NAMED AFTER HIS WIFE, WHO DIED DURING CHILDBIRTH, I NEVER GOT TO MEET HER.
BUT FROM THE STORIES GRANDPA TOLD ME, SHE WAS AN AMAZING WOMAN. I SPENT THE DAY WITH HIM AND LEFT IN THE EVENING AT AROUND 5PM. NOW I WAS CONTENT AND READY TO FACE THE WORLD.

DEAD END

THE DAY WAS FINALLY HERE, I HAD GROWN SO ATTACHED TO TEE'S VILLAGE THAT I FELT SAD LEAVING. TEE USUALLY TELLS ME THAT I GET ATTACHED TOO MUCH AND I TELL HIM "HOW ABOUT I STOP LOVING YOU RIGHT NOW" AND HE WOULD SAY THAT "YOU KNOW THAT IS IMPOSSIBLE" AND WE WOULD ARGUE UNTIL NO ONE WINS.
IT WAS A SUNDAY AND I HAD TO LEAVE EARLY TO MAKE IT BACK TO SCHOOL EARLY. STAYING AT THE COUNTRY MADE ME MISS MY GRANDFATHER SO MUCH THAT I VOWED ONCE I LEFT, I WOULD GO AND SEE HIM. THAT SUNDAY MORNING I PACKED UP MY STUFF AND IT WAS TIME TO GO. TEE, HIS BROTHER AND HIS FRIEND WERE TO ACCOMPANY ME TO THE BUS STATION. HE SUGGESTED THAT WE SHOULD TAKE A MOTORCYCLE SINCE IT WAS QUITE THE DISTANCE BUT I REFUSED, I WANTED TO WALK AND TAKE IN THE SCENE FOR THE LAST TIME.
WE GOT TO THE BUS STATION, I PURCHASED MY TICKET AND AS WE WAITED, TEE SUGGESTED TO ME THAT THERE IS A PLACE HE KNEW IN TOWN WHERE WE COULD FIND AND SMOKE SOME WEED BEFORE I LEFT. WHO WAS I TO OBJECT? I TOLD HIM WE SHOULD GO. WE WENT, THE THREE OF US.
WE SMOKED AND TALKED AND LAUGHED. TEE'S BROTHER DID NOT SMOKE, BUT SINCE EVERYONE THERE WAS SMOKING HE GOT HIGH THROUGH ALL THAT SMOKE AND HE GOT REALLY TALKATIVE WHICH WAS GOOD COZ IT WAS AMAZING AND HE WAS FUNNY TOO. BY THE TIME WE WERE DONE, I FEARED THE BUS WOULD HAVE ALREADY LEFT. YOU DONT KNOW HOW TIME GOES BY WHEN HIGH. BUT HOW WAS I TO GO ON AN EMPTY STOMACH AFTER SMOKING WEED, SO WE WENT TO A HOTEL AND WE ATE. THEN THEY TOOK ME TO THE BUS STATION.
THE BUS HAD ALREADY LEFT BUT THEY TOLD ME TO GET IN THE NEXT ONE. WHICH HAD ONLY TWO REMAINING SEATS. I HUGGED THEM GOODBYE AND I DID NOT EVEN GIVE TEE A KISS. I FELT SO SAD. GOODBYES ARE SAD FOR ME, I DONT LIKE THEM. I FELT LIKE MY HEART WAS BEING RIPPED APART. I HAD GROWN SO ATTACHED THAT IT FELT SAD TO LEAVE.
THE BUS WAS FULL AND IT WAS TIME TO GO. WE LEFT, I WAVED GOODBYE AGAIN THROUGH THE WINDOW. AFTER SOME DISTANCE I CRIED, I REMEMBERED ALL THOSE MOMENTS AND I ACTUALLY CRIED. I DONT KNOW IF I WAS CRYING FOR TEE OR THE PLACE. I HAVE NEVER CRIED FOR LEAVING A PLACE BUT I DID AND THE PERSON NEXT TO ME ASKED WHAT WAS WRONG AND I SAID SOMETHING GOT IN MY EYE. WHICH WAS A WHITE LIE BECAUSE HOW COULD SO MANY TEARS BE FROM SOMETHING IN MY EYE. HE DID NOT INSIST.
ON THE WAY I SAW ONLY LOVE, ITS FUNNY HOW THE MIND REVEALS THE EXACT SAME THING YOU ARE FEELING AROUND YOU. I SAW TWO KIDS ABOUT 2 YEARS OLD A BOY AND A GIRL, THEY RAN TOWARDS EACH OTHER HUGGED AND KISSED AND THEN THEY SHIED AWAY AND STARTED RUNNING AGAIN. I HAVE NEVER FORGOTTEN THAT IMAGE.
I SAW A LOT OF LOVERS AND THEY MADE ME ALL THE MORE SAD BUT GLAD THAT I ALSO HAD LOVE. MY JOURNEY GOT TO AN END. I GOT TO SCHOOL JUST IN TIME, BOUGHT FOOD AND WEED AND WENT TO THE HOUSE. IT WAS GOING TO BE SO EMPTY WITHOUT TEE.

LAST NIGHT

I FINALLY FOUND OUT THAT THE REASON FOR MY MOODSWINGS WAS MY PERIODS. THE PAIN I USUALLY GOT FROM MY PERIODS I COULD HANDLE BECAUSE IT WAS ALWAYS BEARABLE, BUT AFTER THE ABORTION, THE PAIN WAS EXTREMELY INTENSE. ANYWAY, ON MY LAST DAY AT THE VILLAGE, TEE'S BROTHER AND I WENT TO THE RIVER WE HANG OUT AND TALKED A LOT, THEN HE SHOWED ME AROUND THE VILLAGE, THE PLACE WAS REALLY BEAUTIFUL, I MEAN I FELL IN LOVE WITH IT.
I CANNOT REMEMBER WHAT TEE WAS DOING THAT DAY BUT HE WAS NOT AROUND, SO IN THE EVENING I DECIDED TO BUY SOME ALCOHOL TO CELEBRATE MY STAY IN THE VILLAGE BEFORE THE FOLLOWING DAY CAME WHICH WAS A SUNDAY WHICH WAS WHEN I HAD TO LEAVE. I WOULD HAVE PREFERRED WEED BUT I DIDN'T KNOW WHERE TO GET WEED. SO I OPTED FOR ALCOHOL.
TEE'S BROTHER TOOK ME TO THE SHOPPING CENTER, I BOUGHT TWO BOTTLES, I KNEW I WOULD BARELY DRINK BUT TEE WOULD. THAT NIGHT AFTER WE ALL HAD SUPPER, TEE INVITED HIS FRIEND OVER, THE ONE WHO GAVE US WEED BUT UNFORTUNATELY THAT NIGHT HE DID NOT HAVE WEED. IT WAS A FULL MOON, THE SKYS LOOKED AMAZING, THE AIR WAS SO CALM. I FELT LIKE I COULD LIVE IN THAT MOMENT FOREVER.
WE PUT ON SOME MUSIC AND WE DRANK AND TALKED AND THE ALCOHOL DID NOT LAST THAT LONG AND NO ONE WAS DRUNK BY THE TIME THE TWO BOTTLES WERE OVER. BUT WE HAD A GREAT TIME. WE WATCHED THE STARS UNTIL AROUND 1AM, TEE'S FRIEND LEFT AND TEE WENT WITH HIM JUST TO MAKE SURE HE GOT HOME SAFELY, HIS HOUSE WAS NOT FAR AWAY FROM TEE'S.
WHEN HE CAME BACK I WAS ALREADY IN BED SO HE JOINED ME, I FOUND OUT THAT THE REASON HE HAD GONE AWAY THE WHOLE DAY WAS BECAUSE I WAS BEING ALL MOODY ON HIM AND HE DID NOT WANT TO ARGUE ON OUR LAST DAY. I SAID THAT THAT DIDN'T MAKE SENSE, I WAS NOTHING BUT SWEET TO HIM BUT OF COURSE WE BOTH KNEW I WAS LYING.
WE PUT ALL THAT BEHIND US AND DECIDED TO ENJOY THE NIGHT, WE TALKED INTO THE NIGHT ABOUT HOW MUCH WE WOULD MISS EACH OTHER AND WE HAD SEX. AND WE CALLED IT A NIGHT.

LOVE

THERE WAS SOME LOVE THAT NIGHT AND MY HOLIDAY WAS COMING TO AN END. MY PLAN WAS TO STAY THERE FOR A WEEK THEN GO BACK TO SCHOOL TO FOLLOW UP ON THE APPLICATIONS I HAD SENT FOR MY ATTACHMENT. I DID NOT WANT TO MISS AN ATTACHMENT. THE FOLLOWING DAY CAME, TEE, HIS BROTHER AND I EACH OF US HAD DUTIES TO DO. TEE WAS TAKING CARE OF THE COW, HIS BROTHER WAS FINISHING UP ON SOME FIELD WORK AND I WAS DOING THE UTENSILS AFTER HAVING CLEANED UP THE COMPOUND.
THE DAY WAS SUNNY, WE WERE CHATTING WITH TEE LISTENING TO THE RADIO WHEN GRANDPA SUDDENLY ENTERED THE COMPOUND. GRANDPA WAS KATES DAD, HE WAS CONSIDERABLY OLD THAT'S WHY I CALLED HIM GRANDPA, KATE WAS THE LASTBORN, HE HAD LIKE FIFTEEN CHILDREN I THINK.
SO WE GREETED HIM AND GAVE HIM A SEAT. HE CAME OVER TO TALK TO TEE, SO THEY TALKED ABOUT VARIOUS ISSUES WHILE TEES BROTHER AND I MADE THEM TEA. THE CALF WAS SICK AND GRANDPA HAD COME TO GIVE TEE ADVICE ON HOW TO TAKE CARE OF IT, BUT MONTHS LATER THE CALF PASSED AWAY.
GRANDPA WAS THERE FOR A WHILE AND WE DID NOT TALK APART FROM GREETINGS, I WAS STILL HAVING ONE OF MY MOOD SWINGS. THE DAY PASSED BY PRETTY FAST AND IN THE EVENING TEE AND I WENT TO GET SOME WEED TO SMOKE UNDER THE NIGHT SKYS. TEES BROTHER NEVER SMOKED, HE ACTUALLY DID NOT DO ANY DRUGS. I LIKED THAT ABOUT HIM, HE STOOD BY HIS PRINCIPLES.
THERE WERE ONLY TWO DAYS LEFT FOR MY DEPARTURE, I WAS TO LEAVE ON A SUNDAY.
BUT THAT NIGHT AFTER WE HAD SMOKED WEED, TEE HAD TAKEN MY LAPTOP TO KATES PLACE DURING THE DAY TO CHARGE AND I HAD NO IDEA. SO HE WENT FOR IT, AND LEFT ME WITH HIS BROTHER, WE WERE IN THE KITCHEN BY THE FIRE. HIS BROTHER AND I HAD A REALLY GOOD TIME THAT EVENING CONNECTING, I DID NOT EVEN NOTICE THAT TEE WAS NOT AROUND.
BUT WHEN HE CAME BACK, IT HIT ME THAT HE HAD BEEN GONE FOR A LONG TIME, SO I SUDDENLY GOT MAD AT HIM, I STARTED THINKING THAT HE WAS WITH KATE DOING WHATEVER IT IS THEY DO WHEN THEY ARE TOGETHER.
FROM MY OBSERVATIONS THE PREVIOUS DAY, KATE ACTUALLY LIKED TEE A LOT, I COULD TELL, SHE ALWAYS HANG AROUND HIM, ALWAYS TOUCHING HIM AND SHE WOULD SIT WHERE TEE SAT. IT BOTHERED ME OF COURSE BUT I TRIED TO MAINTAIN MY EMOTIONS.  TEE TRIED TALKING TO ME BUT I JUST IGNORED HIM, I DONT KNOW WHERE THE ANGER CAME FROM ALL OF A SUDDEN, SO HE GAVE ME THE LAPTOP AND HE WENT TO BED. HIS BROTHER AND I OPENED A MOVIE TO WATCH BUT AFTER FIVE MINUTES INTO IT, I MISSED TEE AND DECIDED TO GO JOIN HIM IN BED. SO I BID HIS BROTHER GOODNIGHT.
WHEN I GOT TO BED I HELD HIM AND HE MOVED CLOSER TO ME, PUT HIS ARMS AROUND ME AND WE SLEPT. JUST SLEPT, THERE WAS NO SEX THAT NIGHT.

SILENT NIGHT

ANOTHER DAY WAS OVER AND CAME A NEW DAY.  THE FOLLOWING DAY WE COMPLETED THE WORK IN THE FIELD AND CLEANED UP HOME. TEES BROTHER HAD SOME ERRANDS TO RAN, SO IT WAS JUST TEE AND I. NIGHT CAME PRETTY FAST. SINCE AT TEES HOME THERE WAS NO ELECTRICITY HE TOLD ME TO ACCOMPANY HIM TO KATES HOME SO THAT I WOULD CHARGE MY LAPTOP THERE. I REALLY DID NOT WANT TO MEET THIS KATE BUT I WAS ALSO CURIOUS SO WE WENT.
THEY HAD A PRETTY NICE HOME, WELL TAKEN CARE OF. WE MET KATE JUST OUTSIDE THE COMPOUND AND SHE WAS PREGNANT, TEE INTRODUCED ME AS HIS COUSIN AND I SAID HI TO HER SHE MADE A JOKE THAT TEE WAS THE FATHER OF HER CHILD AND HE RAN AWAY ONCE HE FOUND OUT THAT SHE WAS PREGNANT. EVERYONE LAUGHED APART FROM ME. I DIDNT FIND IT FUNNY AND I HATED HER AT FIRST SIGHT. SHE WAS SO JUMPY AND TALKATIVE, I FOUND HER UNBEARABLE. SO TEE WENT AHEAD TO CHARGE THE LAPTOP SINCE HE KNEW HIS WAY AROUND THE HOUSE AND HE WAS WELCOME ANYTIME.
HE HAD PROMISED ME THAT I WOULD HAVE A GOOD TIME, BECAUSE GRANDPA WAS AROUND AND HE GAVE THE BEST STORIES, ABOUT THE PAST. I LOVED OLD PEOPLES STORIES. I WAS NO LONGER IN THE MOOD ONCE WE GOT THERE. MY MOODS JUST SHIFTED AND I STAYED SILENT, THE WHOLE TIME WE SPENT THERE, LIKE I LITERALLY DID NOT UTTER A SINGLE WORD NOT EVEN A SMILE OR A LAUGH. AND WE WERE THERE FOR ONE AND A HALF HOURS. EVERYONE CHATTED AWAY AND THEY WERE ALL LAUGHING, FROM MY OBSERVATIONS THEY REALLY LIKED TEE, BUT I WAS NOT SURPRISED, EVERYONE LIKED HIM, HE WAS A FRIENDLY PERSON. TEE TRIED TO MAKE ME TALK BY SUBTLE CONVERSATION, I HAD TO ANSWER WHERE I AM FROM AND HOW TEE AND I WERE RELATED. BUT APART FROM THAT, I DID NOT TALK. GRANDPA TRIED MAKING A CONVERSATION WITH ME BUT I COULD NOT HAVE IT SO HE SOON  JUST GAVE UP.
IT WAS TIME FOR US TO GO, WE BID THEM GOODBYE AND LEFT, THE AIR HAD A CALMNESS TO IT, THE STARS WERE BRIGHT AND IT WAS A BEAUTIFULL SILENT NIGHT.
"BABE ARE YOU OKAY?" TEE ASKED ME
"YES AM OKAY" I KNEW HE WOULD ASK THAT BECAUSE OF HOW SILENT I WAS
"ARE YOU SURE BECAUSE YOU HAVE BEEN SO QUIET EVER SINCE WE GOT TO KATES PLACE"
"BABE I'M JUST QUIET THERE IS NOTHING WRONG REALLY" I KNEW HE WAS NOT GOING TO GIVE UP SOON
"I KNOW YOU DONT LIKE THEM BUT THAT IS JUST WHO THEY ARE, TRY AND BEAR WITH THEM."
"IT'S OKAY I UNDERSTAND AND I HATE THAT KATE" HE SMILED
"I KNEW IT"
"DID YOU WANT ME TO LOVE HER?"
"I WOULD HAVE BEEN HURT IF YOU LIKED HER"
SO WE LAUGHED
"BABE CAN WE NOW STOP TALKING ABOUT THIS, ITS A BEAUTIFUL NIGHT, THE STARS ARE SHINING, THE MOON IS OUT, WE ARE IN THE COUNTRY, DO YOU KNOW WHAT THAT MEANS," I TOLD HIM, HE PULLED ME CLOSER TO HIM AND TOLD ME
"NO, I DONT, WHY DONT YOU TELL ME"
SO I KISSED HIM AND WE KISSED FOR A WHILE
"NOW WE HAVE TO GET BACK HOME IT'S LATE," I TOLD HIM AFTER PULLING MYSELF AWAY
"SERIOUSLY, YOU JUST SAID ITS A BEAUTIFUL NIGHT, WHY CAN'T WE STAY HERE A LITTLE BIT LONGER?"
"WE WOULD IF THERE WAS A BED," I TOLD HIM
"WELL THERE IS A TREE THAT SHOULD COUNT FOR SOMETHING" HAHAHA VERY FUNNY, WE LAUGHED AND WALKED BACK HOME. IT WAS A SILENT NIGHT.

COUNTRY WEED

MY MOODS CAME AND WENT, THEY WERE LIKE THE WIND, THIS TIME THEY ARE BLOWING NEXT TIME THEY ARE NON EXISTING. AM A VERY IMPULSIVE PERSON, I TRY SO HARD NOT TO MAKE DECISIONS BASED ON WHAT AM FEELING BUT I FAIL MOST OF THE TIMES.
TEE CAME TO FIND OUT WHAT WAS WRONG.
"HEY BABE ARE YOU OKAY, YOU JUST LEFT WITHOUT A WORD"
"I'M FINE "
"ARE YOU SURE COZ YOU DONT LOOK FINE" I DONT KNOW WHY, BUT I WAS REALLY GETTING IRRITATED WITH ALL HIS QUESTIONS
"YES I'M SURE, WHY DONT YOU JUST LEAVE ME ALONE AND GO TALK TO YOUR GIRLFRIEND"
"I'M DOING THAT RIGHT NOW" I GAVE HIM A HARD STARE THAT SAID, OH YOU THINK YOU ARE FUNNY
"C'MON BABE, SHE IS NOT MY GIRLFRIEND THAT IS MAY SHE IS KATE'S SISTER, YOU KNOW THE GIRL I WAS TELLING YOU ABOUT"
"YEAH RIGHT, THAT IS WHY YOU WERE LAUGHING SO HARD TOGETHER WHILE SHE STROKED YOUR ARM"
"DONT TELL ME YOU'RE JEALOUS,  DID YOU EVEN SEE HER PROPERLY?"
"I SAW ENOUGH AND AM NOT JEALOUS"
"YOU WILL MEET HER LATER WHEN WE GO OVER TO THEIR PLACE AND YOU WILL SEE I HAVE NOTHING TO HIDE"
"FINE"
"NOW PLEASE SMILE, DONT MAKE ME FEEL MISERABLE" SO HE KISSED ME AND I SMILED.
IT SEEMED EVERYWHERE WE WENT, TEE KNEW SOMEONE WHO SMOKED WEED OR SOLD WEED. SO HE ASKED ME IF I WANTED SOME WEED AND I WAS LIKE IS THAT EVEN A QUESTION OF COURSE I WANT TO SMOKE.
SO WE WENT OVER TO HIS FRIENDS PLACE AND HE GAVE US SOME WEED, WE CAME BACK TO THE FARM AND CLIMBED THIS TREE, WE SAT THERE AND HE LIT UP THE JOINT AND WE SMOKED WHILE TALKING AND LISTENING TO MUSIC, LIFE WAS SWEET WHEN SMOKING WEED, IT WAS A LOVELY AFTERNOON.

FIELD

IT WAS A LOVELY NIGHT, AN UNFORGETTABLE NIGHT. COME MORNING, THAT PLACE WAS REALLY COLD. WHEN I WOKE UP I WAS ALONE. TEE WOKE UP EARLY TO GO MILK THE COW AND HIS BROTHER WAS IN THE KITCHEN PREPARING BREAKFAST.
I DECIDED TO TAKE ADVANTAGE OF THE SITUATION AND SLEEP SOME MORE. NO ONE WAS GOING TO SCREAM AT ME TO WAKE UP LIKE MY MUM USUALLY DID.
I COULDN'T EVEN REMEMBER THE LAST TIME I HAD SOME PEACEFULL SLEEP. WHEN BREAKFAST WAS READY, TEE CAME TO WAKE ME UP SO THAT I COULD JOIN THEM, IT WAS JUST THE THREE OF US. AFTER BREAKFAST I DID SOME CLEANING AROUND THE COMPOUND. IT WAS EVIDENT THAT NO ONE HAD TAKEN CARE OF THE HOME FOR A WHILE.
WHEN I WAS DONE I WAS SATISFIED WITH MY WORK. THE PLACE REALLY LOOKED BEAUTIFUL. WE HAD TO GO TO THE FIELD TO CLEAR IT OUT, I MEAN TEE AND HIS BROTHER HAD TO, BUT I JOINED THEM, I DIDN'T WANT TO STAY ALL ALONE IN THE COMPOUND. PLUS IT WAS A CHANCE FOR SOME ADVENTURE. AS WE WERE CLEARING THE FIELD WHILE TALKING, NEIGHBOURS PASSED BY AND SAID HELLO TO TEE AND HIS BROTHER, OF COURSE, THEY ASKED WHO I WAS, SO TEE INTRODUCED ME AS HIS COUSIN, I DIDN'T MIND I KNEW WHY HE DID THAT.
THEN THERE WAS THIS GIRL SHE WAS REALLY INTO TEE AND I HAD HEARD ONLY STORIES ABOUT HER FROM TEE AND HIS BROTHER, HER SISTER CAME BY AND MY HEART JUST TURNED BLACK, I COULDN'T EVEN WORK ANYMORE. IT'S HARD TO BELIEVE THAT I WAS ACTUALLY  JEALOUS, I WATCHED TEE AND THE GIRL FROM AFAR AS THEY TALKED AND LAUGHED AND EVERY LAUGHTER JUST STABBED MY SOUL. TEE CALLED ME SO THAT HE COULD INTRODUCE ME AND I PRETENDED NOT TO HEAR HIM AND WENT BACK TO THE HOUSE.
I KNEW HE WOULD FOLLOW ME TO FIND OUT WHAT WAS WRONG. I COULDNT JUST ADMIT TO HIM THAT I WAS JEALOUS.

HOLIDAY SEX

WE SAID HI TO A FEW PEOPLE ON THE WAY WHO RECOGNISED TEE. WE FINALLY GOT TO THEIR HOME. IT WAS QUITE A BIG FARM, SURROUNDED BY TREES, NO ONE LIVED THERE AT THE MOMENT AND THEY HAD A COW AND TWO CATS, A BLACK AND A GREY ONE. THE BLACK ONE THEY CALLED IT NINJA AND THE GREY ONE CUTIE. I COULD SEE WHY THEY CALLED THE BLACK ONE NINJA, IT DISAPPEARED AND APPEARED MIRACULOUSLY, IT WAS VERY SNEAKY. CUTIE WAS VERY SHY I THINK, I RARELY SAW HER.
THE FIRST THING TEE DID WHEN WE GOT TO THEIR HOME WAS HAVE SEX WITH ME ON THE COUCH. I REALLY DIDN'T WANT TO HAVE SEX BUT I DID NOT SAY NO EITHER, I DONT KNOW WHY. ANYWAY AFTERWARD WE WENT TO THE LOCAL SHOP TO BUY SOME THINGS FOR SUPPER.
WHEN WE GOT BACK AND I WAS RESTING ON THE COUCH, NINJA JUST APPEARED FROM NOWHERE AND SCARED THE LIFE OUT OF ME. MY HEART SKIPPED A BEAT. AND THEN AFTERWARDS HE WAS NICE TO ME, HE KEPT COMING WHERE I WAS AND SNUGGLING BESIDE ME, IT WAS LOVELY HE WOULDNT STAY AWAY FROM ME.
TEE TOLD ME THAT CATS DONT LIKE WICKED PEOPLE, SO THE FACT THAT NINJA LIKED ME MEANT I WAS A NICE PERSON WITH A PURE HEART. I COULDN'T AGREE MORE, I DID HAVE A PURE HEART. AROUND 6 PM TEE WENT TO MILK THE COW AND I ACCOMPANIED HIM, I TOLD HIM TO LET ME GIVE IT A TRY AND HE DID, BUT THEN I COULDN'T SEEM TO DO IT RIGHT SO I JUST GAVE UP AND GAVE HIM THE STOOL SO THAT HE WOULD CONTINUE. I WAS SO EXCITED ABOUT HAVING FRESH MILK. IT HAD BEEN AGES SINCE I HAD FRESH MILK, I DRANK LIKE THREE GLASSES.
WE SAT AROUND THE FIRE AND TALKED AND TALKED AND LAUGHED. I HAD REALLY FORGOTTEN A LOT ABOUT THE COUNTRY DESPITE THE FACT THAT I WAS RAISED IN THE COUNTRY BY MY GRANDFATHER BUT LEFT WHEN I WAS STILL YOUNG TO GO LIVE WITH MY MUM AND DAD IN THE CITY. TEE REALLY ENJOYED TELLING ME THAT "BABE YOU SHOULDN'T DO IT THAT WAY, IT'S DONE THIS WAY" I HATED IT. HIM CORRECTING ME AND HE KNEW THAT HE JUST LOVED SEEING MY FACE TURN RED. THE FACT THAT I KNEW HOW TO DO THOSE THINGS MORE THAN FIFTEEN YEARS AGO MADE ME MORE MAD. I REALISED THAT THE CITY CAN REALLY CHANGE YOU A LOT. ALL IN ALL, WE HAD A GOOD TIME.
HIS BROTHER CAME AND JOINED US, WE WENT ON TALKING, COOKED SUPPER AND HANG OUT ON THE GARDEN. IT WAS A FULL MOON, THE STARS WERE SO BRIGHT AND THE QUIET AND PEACE. THE ONLY THING YOU HEARD WAS THE TREES AS THEY WERE BLOWN BY THE WIND AND SEEING SO MANY STARS THAT STRETCHED TO THE END OF UNKNOWN. IT WAS THE BEST DAY OF MY LIFE.
FINALLY, WE WENT TO SLEEP, I SLEPT WITH TEE AND IT WAS A COLD NIGHT BUT LUCKILY I HAD HIM TO KEEP ME WARM, SO WE WENT AHEAD AND HAD SOME AMAZING SEX, I WILL ADMIT IT FELT WEIRD WITH HIS BROTHER SLEEPING IN THE NEXT ROOM THOUGH WE HAD LIKE TWO ROOMS BETWEEN US. BUT ONCE WE GOT INTO IT I FORGOT ABOUT HIM.
I DOZED OFF LIKE A BABY, WITH MY SOUL PEACEFUL AND NOTHING BUT CONTENTMENT AND HAPPINESS.

HOLIDAY

TEES MUM BOUGHT ME SOME PAINKILLERS FOR THE STOMACH PAIN BUT THEY DID NOT WORK. SO AFTER A SHORT WHILE, I BID THEM GOODBYE AND TEE AND I TOOK A MOTORCYCLE TO TOWN. ONCE IN TOWN, THERE WAS THIS WATERFALL AND THERE WAS A PARK. TEE WANTED TO TAKE ME TO THE WATERFALL BUT THE WAY I FELT I JUST WANTED TO LIE DOWN. I TOLD HIM WE SHOULD GO TO THE PARK INSTEAD SO THAT I CAN LIE DOWN.
WE DID AND WE SPENT HOURS TALKING AND LAUGHING, TO ME HE WAS THE ONLY PERSON I SAW, I DIDN'T REALIZE THERE WERE OTHER PEOPLE TOO, ONLY TO TURN AROUND AND FIND PEOPLE STARING AT US. THE PAIN FINALLY SUBSIDED AND IT WAS TIME TO GO HOME OR RATHER HOME TO TEES PLACE. WE TOOK A BUS AND ALIGHTED AT THEIR STAGE.
FROM THE STAGE TO TEES PLACE IT WAS ABOUT 3KM, TEE WANTED US TO TAKE A MOTORCYCLE AGAIN BUT I WANTED TO WALK. I LOVE WALKING IT CLEARS MY MIND. PLUS HIS HOME AREA WAS REALLY BEAUTIFUL SO MANY TALL TREES AND BREATHTAKING VIEWS, VERY GREEN AND VERY PEACEFULL.
TEE ASKED ME IF I WAS SURE I WANTED TO WALK SINCE IT WAS QUITE FAR AND I TOLD HIM YES. WE WENT AHEAD AND WALKED. THE PLACE WAS REALLY BEAUTIFUL, I FELT LIKE I WAS BORN AGAIN OR SEEING THE WORLD FOR THE FIRST TIME. IT WAS COMPLETELY UNTOUCHED BY URBANISATION. REMINDED ME OF MY CHILDHOOD.
AS WE WENT HOME TEE KEPT ME ENTERTAINED TELLING ME ALL THESE STORIES ABOUT THE PLACE AND WE STOPPED ONCE IN A WHILE SO THAT HE COULD SHOW ME SOMETHING. THE JOURNEY WAS SPECTACULAR.

DAUGHTER

FINALLY, THE JOURNEY CAME TO AN END. IT TURNS OUT TEES MUM DID NOT LIVE THAT FAR FROM THE STAGE. I WAS SO NERVOUS BUT TEE WAS RIGHT. HIS MUM WAS SO WELCOMING AND TALKATIVE. I ACTUALLY DIDNT HAVE TO SAY ANYTHING. JUST LISTEN. TEE INTRODUCED ME AS HIS FRIEND. I DIDN'T MIND, I WOULD HAVE BEEN MAD IF HE HAD INTRODUCED ME AS HIS GIRLFRIEND.
WE WERE FOUR OF US, TEE, HIS YOUNGER BROTHER, HIS MUM AND I. WE HAD A GOOD TIME TALKING AND DRINKING SOME TEA AS THE FOOD GOT READY. TEE AND HIS BROTHER LEFT AND I WAS LEFT ALONE WITH HIS MUM. SO HIS MUM WENT AHEAD TO TELL ME STORIES OF HER TWO BOYS AND SHE LOVED THEM DEARLY, WE HAD A GOOD CHAT, GIRL TO GIRL. IT WAS BETTER THAN I EXPECTED.
TEE AND HIS BROTHER CAME BACK AND WE HAD LUNCH WHILE TALKING AND LOTS OF LAUGHING. SUDDENLY MY STOMACH JUST BEGAN ACHING OUT OF THE BLUES. THE PAIN WAS SO INTENSE, I LEFT THEM IN THE HOUSE AND WENT TO LIE ON THE GRASS UNDER A TREE. I KNOW ITS A COINCIDENCE THAT EVERYWHERE I GO THERE ARE ALWAYS TREES AROUND. NATURE LOVES ME AND SO DO I.
WHEN THE PAIN SUBSIDED A BIT, I WENT BACK TO THE HOUSE AND TOLD THEM THAT I HAD TO LEAVE, GO BACK HOME. ACTUALLY, THE PLAN WAS, I WAS GOING TO STAY WITH TEE AT HIS PLACE WHICH WAS A COUPLE OF KILOMETERS FROM HIS MUMS HOME, BUT HIS MUM DIDNT KNOW THAT. SHE KNEW I WAS GOING HOME. THE PAIN CAME BACK AND THIS TIME MORE INTENSE, I REALLY NEEDED TO LIE DOWN ANYWHERE, I WENT BACK OUTSIDE UNDER THE TREE. SO TEE CAME AND ASKED WHAT WAS WRONG AND I TOLD HIM.
HE WENT BACK INSIDE AND TOLD HIS MUM THAT I WAS GETTING LATE AND I HAD TO LEAVE, HIS MUM DID NOT OBJECT, SHE WENT AROUND INTRODUCING ME AS HER DAUGHTER, IT WAS ALRIGHT, I DID NOT MIND IT. TEE AND HIS BROTHER THOUGHT I WAS PRETENDING ABOUT THE STOMACH ACHE SO THAT I COULD LEAVE AND I HAD FORGOTTEN ABOUT THE PLAN WE HAD MADE.