ANOTHER DAY CAME, MY BODY WAS WEAK SINCE I HAD LOST A CONSIDERABLE AMOUNT OF BLOOD. TEE TOOK CARE OF ME, HE WOULDN'T LET ME DO ANYTHING. THIS TIME THE ABORTION DID NOT MESS WITH ME THAT MUCH BUT I STILL FELT THE WEIGHT OF WHAT I HAD DONE.
WHAT WILL BE WILL BE, I TOLD MYSELF THAT MY LIFE HAD PLANNED AND I WAS MEANT TO FOLLOW THAT PATH. MY WEED ADDICTION MOVED A NOTCH HIGHER. I WAS NOT ABLE TO DO ANYTHING WITHOUT WEED.
I MEAN I WOULD DO THINGS WITHOUT WEED BUT THEY JUST SEEMED BETTER WITH WEED. ACCORDING TO ME I HAD CONTROL, I LOVED SMOKING, I REALLY DID. AND I KNEW A DAY WOULD COME WHEN I WOULD STOP, I JUST WAS NOT SURE WHEN THAT WOULD BE BUT I KNEW FOR NOW I NEEDED IT.
TEE WELL I DONT KNOW HOW HE WAS COPING BUT HE SEEMED FINE TO ME. ALTHOUGH EVERY TIME WE WENT THROUGH A SITUATION AND HE SEEMED FINE I KNEW HE WAS DYING INSIDE. HE WAS JUST A HARD MAN TO READ AND WHEN I ASKED HIM IF HE WAS DOING ALRIGHT HE WOULD MAKE JOKES TO ESCAPE THE CONVERSATION, SO I WOULD LET HIM, I KNEW THAT WHEN HE WAS READY HE WOULD TALK.
I WAS SUPPOSED TO GO HOME THE WEEK I HAD THE ABORTION BUT I FIRST HAD TO COPE WITH THE SITUATION AND GET WELL PHYSICALLY BEFORE I WENT HOME, SO I GAVE MYSELF TWO WEEKS AND TOLD MY PARENTS THAT, I WOULD BE HOME AFTER TWO WEEKS.
LIFE GOES ON, THAT IS WHAT IT DOES, IT DOES NOT WAIT FOR ANYONE. I HAD TO RACE AGAINST TIME OR I WOULD LOSE MYSELF.
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