NEW DAY

I TRIED SLEEPING, ROLLING ON THE FLOOR, CLUTCHING MY STOMACH SEVERAL TIMES, BUT THE PAIN WOULDNT GO AWAY. IT CAME FOR FIVE MINUTES AND DISAPPEARED FOR ANOTHER FIVE MINUTES, AND EVERY TIME IT CAME BACK STRONGER THAN BEFORE. THE DOCTOR HAD GIVEN ME PILLS TO INDUCE EARLY LABOUR, OF COURSE I DID NOT KNOW THAT BY THEN.
I TRIED CRYING BUT NO TEARS WOULD FALL, SO I FINALLY GOT ENOUGH OF IT, AND WENT TO LOOK FOR THE DOCTOR, SO THAT HE COULD GIVE ME SOME PAINKILLERS. I FOUND HIM HAVING SUPPER WITH ONE OF HIS ASSISTANTS AND I TOLD HIM I NEEDED SOME PAINKILLERS AND HE TOLD ME HE WOULD COME. SO I WENT BACK TO THE ROOM. I ROLLED A FEW TIMES ON THE FLOOR AS I WAITED FOR HIM. THE ROLLING STILL DID NOT WORK, I DECIDED TO FORCE MYSELF TO GO TO SLEEP.
I LIED ON THE BED AND WAITED FOR HIM TO COME. AS I WAS WAITING FOR HIM AND THE PAIN KEPT GETTING INTENSE, I SAW DEATH. SO I TOLD GOD, I KNOW WHAT I HAVE DONE IS NOT RIGHT BUT DONT LET ME DIE IN THIS HOSPITAL RIGHT NOW, AT LEAST WAIT TILL IM OUT OF THE HOSPITAL AND I PROMISE I WILL NEVER DO THIS AGAIN. BUT, YOU ALREADY KNOW THE TRUTH.
THE DOCTOR FINALLY CAME AFTER WHAT SEEMED LIKE FOREVER, HE GAVE ME SOME PILLS FOR THE PAIN BUT AS SOON AS I SWALLOWED THEM, I VOMITED EVERYTHING I HAD. SO HE DECIDED TO GIVE ME AN INJECTION. HE DID SOME EXAMINATIONS AND ASSURED ME EVERYTHING WAS FINE, HAVING PAIN WAS PART OF THE PROCESS.
HE LEFT AND I WAS ALONE AGAIN. THIS TIME I DECIDED I AM GOING TO FORCE MYSELF TO GO TO SLEEP. AND I DID SLEEP. WHEN I WOKE UP IN THE MORNING AT AROUND SIX AM AND SAW THE LIGHT OF DAY, I WAS SO GLAD AND GRATEFULL. I HAVE NEVER BEEN SO HAPPY TO SEE THE DAY LIKE I WAS THAT DAY. AFTER A FEW MINUTES MY BABY POPPED OUT. I SAW HIM, IT WAS A HIM, I COULD DEFINITELY TELL FROM THE FEATURES. I STARTED CRYING AND FELT LIKE I HAD BEEN STRANGLED. SADDEST MOMENT OF MY LIFE.
THE DOCTOR CAME AND ASKED ME IF I WANTED THE BABY OR IF HE SHOULD DISPOSE IT, SO I CHOSE THE LATTER. TEE WAS ALREADY IN THE HOSPITAL, SO THE DOCTOR ASKED HIM TO COME IN AND HE TOLD ME THAT AS SOON AS AM READY I GO TO HIS OFFICE SO THAT WE COULD FINISH UP ON SOME PAPERWORK.
TEE HUGGED ME AND IT FELT SO GOOD. WE DIDNT SAY ANYTHING TO EACH OTHER. AS SOON AS I WAS DRESSED, AND CHECKED IF I HAD ALL MY BELONGINGS WITH ME, WE WENT TO THE OFFICE, FINISHED UP THE PAPERWORK AND THE DOCTOR TOLD ME THAT I SHOULD GO BACK IF I EVER NEEDED CONTRACEPTIVES.
I EXPECTED THAT, BUT I KNEW I WAS NEVER GOING BACK TO THAT HOSPITAL EVER AGAIN.
I FORGOT "NEVER SAY NEVER"