PANIC

HELLO GUYS, SORRY I HAVE BEEN GONE FOR SO LONG. BUT, THE JOURNEY CONTINUES.

AFTER THREE DAYS I DECIDED I WOULD NOT WAIT ANYMORE FOR THEM. SO, I WENT TO THE CHEMIST AND BOUGHT A PREGNANCY TEST. I WAS PANICKING ALL THE WAY, I KEPT TELLING MYSELF NO, I CANNOT BE PREGNANT BUT A SMALL VOICE, YOU KNOW THAT VOICE OF REASON INSIDE YOUR BEING, THE ONE THAT WE ALWAYS IGNORE BUT IT IS ALWAYS RIGHT.
THE VOICE TOLD ME THAT I WAS PREGNANT, AS USUAL, I FOUGHT WITH IT AND TOLD IT NO, I AM NOT. HOW CAN I BE, I MEAN I HAVEN'T HAD SEX SINCE... OH RIGHT. NO, IT CANNOT BE. PLEASE GOD DONT LET IT BE THAT. AND THE VOICE TOLD ME, WHAT YOU ARE THINKING IS THE CORRECT ANSWER.
I WENT HOME, I WAS WITH TEE, HE ALSO WANTED TO KNOW, BUT HIS EXCUSE WAS I JUST WANT TO BE THERE FOR YOU IN CASE OF ANYTHING. WHEN WE GOT HOME I TOOK THE TEST AND ONE HOUR PASSED WITHOUT ME LOOKING AT THE TEST, I WAS TOO NERVOUS AND WHEN TEE TOLD ME TO CHECK IT ON MY BEHALF I REFUSED.
FINALLY, I GOT THE COURAGE AND IT WAS POSITIVE BUT A VERY FAINT LINE, SO I TOLD MYSELF THAT IT MUST BE THE EFFECTS AND HORMONES FROM THE PREGNANCY THAT ARE MAKING THE RESULT POSITIVE AND SINCE IT WAS VERY FAINT.
I DID NOT WANT TO BELIEVE OTHERWISE. TEE JUST WENT ALONG WITH WHAT I SAID COZ, WHAT ELSE WOULD HE DO. I JUST HOPED I WAS RIGHT. THE VOICE JUST LAUGHED AT ME. I KNOW THE TRUTH AND YOU DO TOO, YOU JUST WANT TO DENY IT.
I DECIDED TO WAIT ANOTHER WHOLE WEEK, TO TAKE THE TEST AGAIN AND SEE WHAT WOULD HAPPEN. MY MIND TOLD ME THAT BY THEN THE RESULT WOULD BE NEGATIVE BUT MY BEING TOLD ME IT WOULD STILL BE POSITIVE.
A LIE IS ALWAYS BETTER THAN THE TRUTH.