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THE EVENING WAS LOVELY, THERE WAS A LOT OF LAUGHTER, TEE IS SUCH A JOKER. BUT, I LOVE IT, TRUST HIM TO LIFT YOUR SPIRITS UP WHEN YOU ARE DOWN. HE PREPARED SUPPER, WE ATE, WE SMOKED, WE DANCED AND WE LAUGHED A LOT. IT WAS A LOVELY EVENING.
I DECIDED THAT IT WAS NOW TIME TO GO TO THE HOSPITAL, I CANT KEEP DELAYING MATTERS AND WHO KNOWS IT MIGHT BE SERIOUS THAN I THINK. I DECIDED TO VISIT THE HOSPITAL ON A TUESDAY, I DID NOT HAVE A CLASS THAT DAY AND IT JUST FELT LIKE A TUESDAY.
TEE SAID HE WOULD ACCOMPANY ME AND THIS TIME I WAS ALL ON BOARD. TUESDAY CAME AND HERE WE WERE, I WAS TO GO IN THE AFTERNOON AT AROUND 2PM AFTER I HAD LUNCH SO THAT IF THE NEWS WAS BAD I WOULD HAVE SOME ENERGY TO STRESS ABOUT IT.
BUT THEN THAT DAY I HAD ONE OF MY MOODS AND NOTHING TEE DID THAT WAS OKAY, I JUST KEPT GETTING MAD AT HIM I DID NOT EVEN WANT TO HEAR HIS VOICE, HE GOT TIRED OF MY MOOD SWINGS AND TOLD ME THAT HE WILL BE AT THE NEIGHBOURS, WHEN I WAS READY TO LIVE I SHOULD GO GET HIM. I TOLD HIM OKAY.
WHEN I WAS DONE SHOWERING AND DRESSED UP, MY MOODS GOT THE BETTER OF ME AND DECIDED TO GO TO THE HOSPITAL WITHOUT HIM, I JUST LEFT AND DIDNT EVEN SAY A WORD.
I GOT TO THE HOSPITAL AND BOY WAS I NERVOUS ALL OF A SUDDEN. LUCKY ME THERE WAS NO QUEUE SO I JUST WENT AHEAD TO THE DOCTORS'.
"HI, I HAVE COME FOR A PREGNANCY TEST"
"OKAY, DO YOU REMEMBER WHEN YOU HAD YOUR LAST PERIODS?"
"NO"
"NO PROBLEM, THE TEST WILL TELL US HOW OLD THE PREGNANCY IS, IF YOU ARE PREGNANT"
HE EXAMINED ME AND I WAS PREGNANT, 18 WEEKS PREGNANT AND I WAS LIKE WHAT??!!. MY HEAD BEGAN SPINNING RIGHT AWAY.
"YOU WILL HAVE THE BABY SOMETIME..." I CUT HIM SHORT BEFORE HE FINISHED THE SENTENCE
"DO YOU PERFORM ABORTIONS?" HE WAS SHOCKED, BUT I COULD CARE LESS WHAT HE THOUGHT ABOUT ME
"YES WE DO"
"HOW MUCH DOES IT COST?" I ASKED HIM AND HE GAVE ME A FIGURE. I TOLD HIM OKAY.
"SHALL WE DO THIS NOW?" HE ASKED ME
"NO, I HAD NOT CARRIED ANY MONEY WITH ME, BUT I WILL COME LATER"
"OKAY I WILL BE WAITING"
I PAID HIM CONSULTATION FEE AND LEFT.
AS I WAS WALKING HOME, MY TEARS JUST FELL, I JUST CRIED AND WALKED, I COULD NOT RESIST THE TEARS, THE EMOTIONS,  THE FEELINGS.
PEOPLE STARED AT ME AND THEY WERE THE LEAST OF MY CONCERNS, WHATEVER THEY THOUGHT WAS WRONG WITH ME, TO MAKE ME WALK WHILE CRYING. THAT WAS THEIR PROBLEM.