EMOTIONS

I FELT BAD FOR LEAVING HIM BEHIND, WHAT HAD HE EVEN DONE. I WAS BEING STUPID, THE ONLY PROBLEM WAS THAT I COULD NOT CONTROL MY FEELINGS BECAUSE OF HIM. IT WAS NOT HIS FAULT THAT GIRLS LIKED HIM, I ONLY HAD TO FIND A WAY TO DEAL WITH MY EMOTIONS AROUND SUCH SITUATIONS.
I WANTED TO GO BACK AND APOLOGIZE. HE HAD DONE A LOT FOR ME. THE HOUSE WE STAYED IN HE MOVED IN THERE BECAUSE OF ME, SO THAT WE WOULD HAVE A PLACE TO HANG OUT IN THAT WAS PRIVATE.
TEE HAD DROPPED OUT OF CAMPUS IN OUR FIRST YEAR. HE DID ODD JOBS TO TRY AND SURVIVE, HE DID NOT HAVE ANY SUPPORT FROM HIS PARENTS. HE HAD TO TAKE CARE OF HIMSELF.
THE PHOTOGRAPHY BUSINESS HE HAD BORROWED A CAMERA FROM HIS FRIEND AND HE JUST STARTED TAKING PICTURES, HE SAID THAT AT LEAST HE WOULD MAKE MONEY DOING SOMETHING THAT HE LOVED.
HE WAS ALWAYS OPEN WITH ME, I'M THE ONLY ONE WHO KNEW THE REAL HIM. MY EGO WOULD NOT LET ME GO BACK, SO I KEPT ON GOING HOME AND BOUGHT SOME WEED ON MY WAY.
AFTER GETTING HOME I DECIDED THE BEST WAY TO MAKE UP FOR WHAT I HAD DONE TO HIM WAS TO COOK. SO I BOUGHT SOME BEEF AND KALES AND SPINACH. AND COOKED FINGER LICKING FOOD AND SOME TEA TO WASH IT DOWN.
I HOPED AND PRAYED HE WOULD COME HOME, COZ USUALLY AFTER A FIGHT HE GOES OFF TO COOL DOWN AND THEN COME HOME ALL SORTED OUT. JUST AFTER I HAD FINISHED PREPARING THE MEAL, HE OPENED THE DOOR.
"HEY BABE?" HIS VOICE WAS JOVIAL
"HI"I WAS POOR AT APOLOGIZING. BUT IN LOVE, I HAD TO KEEP THE EGO ASIDE
"I SMELL SOMETHING DELICIOUS"
"MADE ESPECIALLY FOR YOU"
"WHAT HAPPENED TO THE ANGRY CHI" HE USED TO CALL ME CHI COZ OF THE ENERGY.
"SHE IS SOMEWHERE IN THERE, LET'S NOT WAKE HER UP NOW"HE KISSED ME
WE ATE ENJOYING THE MOMENT. WHEN WE WERE DONE EATING HE TOLD ME "BABE WHATEVER YOU THINK YOU SAW AT THE EVENT, I PROMISE YOU, YOU MISUNDERSTOOD, I WAS ONLY WORKING. AND HOW MANY TIMES DO I HAVE TO TELL YOU, YOU ALREADY STOLE MY HEART, ANYTIME YOU SEE ME ENTERTAINING PEOPLE, I'M DOING IT FOR OUR BUSINESS SO WE CAN HAVE THE LIFE WE ALWAYS TALK ABOUT, OKAY?"
I LOOKED AT HIM AND SAID OKAY. I MEAN THIS GUY, WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?