LIFE GOES ON

SO, LIFE WENT ON, BUT NOT IN MY WORLD. MY WORLD WAS ALREADY CRUSHED BUT HEY I HAD TO ACCEPT THAT NO ONE FORCED ME TO DO WHAT I DID, I CHOSE IT MYSELF. THAT YEAR IN CAMPUS I FAILED ONE OF MY UNITS AND I THOUGHT, OH MY, THIS LECTURER MUST REALLY HATE ME, BUT IT WAS NOT HIS FAULT, I DUG MY OWN GRAVE.
SINCE WEED WAS NOW MY BEST FRIEND AND I SMOKED UP TO 5 BLUNTS A DAY, MY FRIENDS NOTICED, AND THEY WERE LIKE.
"HEY CHERRY, YOU GOTTA STOP SMOKING WEED"
 I TOLD THEM "YEAH SURE, WHAT DO YOU GUYS EVEN KNOW ABOUT MY LIFE."
"THEN TELL US WHAT IS WRONG, YOU WERE NEVER LIKE THIS"
"NO ONE IS THE SAME, EVEN THE DAYS ARE DIFFERENT AND THE SUN ALSO HIDES ITSELF BEHIND THE CLOUDS SOMETIMES"
THEY LAUGHED AND I KNEW, THANK GOD, YOU GUYS won't PRESSURE ME ABOUT THIS ISSUE AGAIN. WE MOVED ON TO OTHER TOPICS. I KNEW THAT I WAS NOT GOING TO STOP SMOKING WEED ANYTIME SOON, UNTIL I'M COMPLETELY HEALED, THOUGH I DIDNT KNOW WHEN THAT WOULD BE.
MY RELATIONSHIP WITH TEE WAS ON ANOTHER LEVEL, IT WAS OUR SECOND YEAR AND WE WERE ALREADY GETTING USED TO EACH OTHER AND WE LIVED IN THE SAME HOUSE, SO THAT WAS INEVITABLE.
THE ONLY PROBLEM WAS HE STARTED DRINKING AND HE CAME HOME SO DRUNK AND LATER THAN USUAL. WHEN WE FIRST MET I LOVED IT WHEN HE WAS DRUNK COZ HE WOULD TALK NON STOP AND REVEAL THINGS THAT HE WOULD NOT SAY IN HIS NORMAL STATE. HE WAS ALSO VERY FUNNY WHEN HE WAS DRUNK, THAT WAS AN ADVANTAGE, WE WOULD LAUGH TILL OUR CHESTS ACHED.
I DID NOT THINK HOW THE ABORTION HAD AFFECTED HIM, HE WAS NOT ONE OPEN WITH HIS FEELINGS, ANOTHER THING I LOVED ABOUT HIM. ALCOHOL WAS HIS ONLY WAY OUT TO DEAL WITH THE ACHE, AT LEAST THAT WAS WHAT I THOUGHT.
WHEN THE DRINKING BECAME MORE USUAL AND THE HOURS AND SOMETIMES HE WOULD NOT EVEN COME HOME. I FELT AGITATED. I LOATHED HIM. I CRIED MYSELF TO SLEEP AND ASKED GOD WHY DID I HAVE TO FALL IN LOVE.
BUT WHAT DID I KNOW?

THE FIRST TIME I KNEW I WAS IN LOVE WITH HIM WAS ON CHRISTMAS EVE. THAT NIGHT WE TALKED FOR SIX HOURS NON STOP ON PHONE SINCE WE WERE BOTH WITH OUR FAMILIES.

HAPPY HOLIDAYS PEOPLE, SHARE LOVE THIS FESTIVE SEASON, SPEND TIME WITH FAMILY.